I recently reviewed my New Year's resolutions (I keep a little index card in my closet to remind me of them) and one stood out this last week. It was a goal this year to be very centered in keeping my focus on my family and community and church and OFF the media. I have done well, except for the last week. But as a result, I have felt different: unfocused, less purposeful and behind in my daily tasks (which directly affects the attention I give my family). How much precious beautiful sacred time are we willing to waste? That is the question. Looking into our children's eyes is the only way to answer that question.
I am reminded of this quote, Mother Theresa, who I go back to as a mother time and time again:
There should be less talk,
a preaching point is not always
a meeting point. What do you
Take a broom and clean
someone's house. That says enough.
All of us are but His instruments
who do our little bit and pass joy.
(taken from this dog-eared worn out copy of one of my favorite books.)
she also said this:
War is the fruit of politics,
so I don't involve myself, that's all.
If I get stuck in politics, I will stop loving.
Because I will have to stand by one, and not stand by all.
This is the difference.
We are trying to be outside as much as possible-it is getting chillier and the leaves are falling rapidly, and I am not trying to panic about enduring the long gray days ahead. The sun has been wonderful. I have been reading about SADD and how we must not say "I hate winter" but find good things about it. I sort of spit out the food I was eating when reading that and laughed to myself. Is that the key? No wonder I am not fond (better?) of dark cold cloudy winter.
On the same note, does anyone out there take Vitamin D and swear by it for the winter ickies? And is there a more effective brand than the other? I think I need to pour it into my body come January.
Here is how Janey spends her days: Playing store.
Playing with her Fisher Price dollhouse.
Running errands with me (grocery, library, etc.)
She received the cutest cash register from Grandma for her birthday-you can "scan" food on one end of it and it comes with money and a credit card and discount card. She spreads her food out around the living room (the store) and while I man the cash register, she brings me her full cart, I fill up the bag, and then we repeat, repeat, repeat. It's so cute. She has her purse with her credit card in it and just zaps it through, or better yet, pays with cash.
Also her cousins lent her their precious Fisher Price Dollhouse and all the accessories they have amassed over the years, and oh boy, this girl is in heaven. She plays with it constantly and it is so funny to listen to her! I was surprised at what a hit this is.
I am gaining ground on my Christmas shopping and patiently hoping that after Advent I just have a few finishing touches and can concentrate on our sweet traditions and spending time together.
Once again I have a huge stack of books by my night stand but I am excited about all of them. I finished Tattoos on the Heart, recommended by a friend, and it is EXCELLENT. It's written by a Jesuit priest, Gregory Boyle, who serves as the leader of the largest gang intervention agency, located in LA. What an incredible human being he is. I laughed and you can't help but crying at some of his stories, but his message is what hits hard.
"You stand with the least likely to succeed until success is succeeded by something more valuable: kinship. You stand with the belligerent, the surly and the badly behaved until bad behavior is recognized for the language it is: the vocabulary of the deeply wounded and of those whose burdens are more than they can bear." Greg Boyle
I haven't found a single Thanksgiving book I've liked (any suggestions welcomed!) so since Janey and I are interested in adding to our Christmas books so we have been checking out TONS of Christmas books. I have realized how picky I am, but I cant't apologize for it, and have started this far ahead so I can peruse my choices slowly.
This is one that is definitely purchase worthy for me and will be added to our small collection. I will do a post on all of our Christmas books soon.
Oh, I love this story and as a child I would have adored it, because a beautiful doll is involved and the art is wonderful. It is long, so with Janey I definitely skip a little here and there to get to the point but in a couple years she will hear it all. So so sweet and good about a little orphan girl who seeks a family, and a little doll who seeks an owner, and a childless woman who seeks a daughter and predictably (for adults at least) they all find each other.