Ordinary Days I Miss You
Normal day, let me be aware of the treasure you are.
Let me learn from you, love you, treasure you, before you depart.
Let me not pass you by in quest for some rare and perfect tomorrow.
-Mary Jean Iron-
I just wanted to give an update-I didn’t ever intend to abruptly stop blogging but I felt in my heart it was time. I don’t know that I have anything else to say, and I feel like God might be calling me in other directions but now is not the time to make that decision. Thank you so much for all your kind emails and comments over the years and I have loved the friendships that have developed (kindred spirits!) through this avenue.
But also why I’ve been absent-in October I found a lump in my breast quite accidentally. I never did self-breast exams because I thought since I had no risk factors to speak of, that was one cross I wouldn’t have to bear in my life. But I found a lump one day-and found out soon afterwards that it was cancer. A rare kind of aggressive breast cancer (triple negative) that spreads and grows quickly. I had a “good” mammogram in January but the lump was large enough to be obvious by October. I just finished 16 rounds of hard core chemo and will follow up with a couple surgeries and hope to avoid radiation but that will be determined later. And then I will continue to do a lot of praying and deep breaths and crying and doctor appointments and pray pray pray that it doesn’t come back. Because I really love life.
I meant to write this post several times but just couldn’t. I still don’t know if I am doing the right thing by sharing it since it seems like a very very personal private journey. After a cancer diagnosis like this, you feel like cancer takes over your entire life. And it does really. And I can’t tell you how many times I have said, “I want my life back. I don’t even remember who I am and what my routine was like.” Many times I just don’t want to talk about it. The mirror reminds me every day. (Never complain about your hair! Hair is wonderful and keeps you warm. ๐
Here are a few things I have learned and would like to share:
1. My breast surgeon told me that the week I was diagnosed she had two other women around my age (48) in the office with same “rare” diagnosis as me-NO risk factors to speak of, healthy fit women who “did everything right”. No one gets a free pass from breast cancer. Check your breasts every month. Go to THE BEST hospital with the best equipment every time you need a mammogram.
2. If you feel off in any way with your health do not neglect finding out why. I had been exhausted for close to a year or more and should have taken more time to find out why. Maybe it had nothing to do with cancer, but maybe it did. Don’t give up on getting answers even if it is hard to find the time to do so.
3. Treasure your days. You never know how life will change. Slow down. REALLY slow down. Although I have talked endlessly about doing that on this blog, I was a hypocrite in ways, because I was a bundle of energy and stress trying to do too much sometimes even if just for my own family. I have realized I process stress terribly. I hold it all inside and have worried way way too much about things. Don’t do that. Don’t be strong all the time. It is ok and good to cry. It is ok to say “I am struggling with life” to your husband, your friends, or a therapist, and take time for yourself and to pray and journal and be calm. If you struggle with anxiety, get help. Take care of yourself. Totally reject the culture of perfectionism, competitiveness, and comparison and illusion that is so easy to find everywhere today. Get enough sleep. Take walks. Say no. Or if whatever it is helps calm and center you say yes. Grow closer to God. Build your faith. Take time to pray every day.
4. Work hard to find gifts in struggles. God Almighty, this is so difficult when you are in the middle of crap. Really it is and some days I just couldn’t (and can’t). Sometimes I would set a timer to force myself out of bed. I have been lower than I ever have experienced in my life. I have seen and experienced a whole other level of suffering and hope and pain and strength in that damn chemo room. Often I have heard how strong I am-this is what you say to people facing cancer. But I have always been uncomfortable with that, although I know it is a form of encouragement and I would say the same thing. Let me tell you, I have seen strength through this experience from my fellow companions in the journey through cancer. But what does not being strong look like? It’s ok to cry your heart out, and say you can’t do it (with whatever you are facing) and don’t want to and be mad and angry and sometimes hopeless and desperate.
I couldn’t go to church because of low immunity and instead found a few priest’s homilies on podcasts and one quote I keep on my phone from Father Ricardo (or maybe it was Father Hudgins) is, “Find meaning in suffering. Do you see what the Lord is up to? The greater the suffering we endure the more beautiful plan He is unfolding before us. See it, know it, believe it.” I have read that 1000 times. When I look back on other struggles in my life, incredible growth comes through suffering, even though it was always always hard to believe that in the thick of it. I also think as silly as this is, of Dori from Nemo-“Just keep swimming, just keep swimming.” It reminds me to just keep walking through the pain and suffering, keep praying for strength through the journey. I have changed and grown so so much in the last six months, even though I sometimes fought against it and wished it away (and still do!) I know I have learned too many things to even list.
5. What is the most important thing in life? Your relationships with people around you. First with God, and then with your family and your friends. I can’t even tell you how grateful I am for the undying love and dedication I have experienced through this journey from my husband, my children, my friends and extended family and even strangers. It has been an incredible experience that way-I have felt like I have moved up to a whole other plane of love-a perfect example of growth through struggles.
I have read your blog for years and it broke my heart to hear this news. What a tremendous trial for you and your family to endure. I admire so much that you took the time to share these wise words even in the midst of your treatment. The "Find Meaning in Suffering" quote is one I will remember and keep in my heart. I feel your "don't be strong all the time" advice is meant for me as well. I appreciate everything you've ever said on this blog to remind me how motherhood is a precious gift, even though it is not easy. I will be praying earnestly for you and your family! <3
I am so glad you wrote about this, and not surprised at all that even through your suffering, you are teaching the rest of us. You are so good at that. Thank you for sharing your heart. Sending so many prayers from Arizona! Love you Sara!
I read your blog for so long that I almost feel that i know you and your family! I big kiss from me to you. Cรฉlia – Portugal
Broke my heart to read this. I love your blog, have read it and been inspired by it for years… am a stay-at-home mom to 4 little ones (7-6-5-2) and right now, I am totally "over" being a mom, because things are just so hard and crazy and not working… this has reminded me to treasure life, even through the tough parts. As always, you are an inspiration. Thank you.
You are a warrior โฅ Stupid cancer. You can face anything after what you 've been through. Love you
I check your blog EVERYDAY to see if there is a new post. Words can not express how sorry I am for what you are enduring. Somehow, even through this, you are the one encouraging and passing on your wisdom. You are a very rare gem in today's world. Sara, you are now at the top of my prayer list. If you decide to share here again, just know that I will be checking. Love, Kathy
I've kept your blog on my favorites list…and check it every day. My prayers are with you and your family…your faith shines through you and your writing…it will get you through this as well.
My daughter taught third grade…their character quality was perseverance. One little girl wrote "just keep swimming…just keep swimming"…my favorite quote.
Hugs and prayers from California….
Oh Sarah Iโm so sorry to hear this. Thank you for sharing and reminding us all about what matters most. Prayers from Washington.
I have been reading your blog for many years, I think since my first child was a baby (heโs 7 now.) I have never commented before but your blog has been such an inspiration and source of strength to me over the years. When I need some strength as a Catholic mother of three who stays home with your kids, I come to your blog to reread. Tears fall from my face as I type this. I am so sorry to hear about your diagnosis and all that you have been through in pursuit of treatment. May God grant you the strength to make the best of this journey as tough and unforgiving as it might be. And thank you for all your honesty and for bravely being an example to those like me who have really needed one over to these years.
โค๏ธ and prayers.
I'm here crying reading this but at the same time I'm inspired, as always, by your faith in God. I have followed you from the beginning and your words, experience, and wisdom has helped me through many tough days as a mom. I am sure this post was very difficult to write and I thank you for sharing the information and sharing your life with us. You and your family will be in my heartfelt prayers. May you continue to find your strength in God and from the support of all of those who love you.
I have been following your blogs for many years and I had decided that you were too busy with your family to continue. I am so sorry to hear this and will be praying for your healing and recovery. Much love from Texas.
Oh Sarah!!! I am so heartbroken to read this! I am a fellow SAHM of six and I have found so much comfort and inspiration from reading your blog. I was so excited to see a new post from you and so saddened as I read. Thank you for sharing your journey with us and allowing us the opportunity to pray for you and your family. Please know you have an entire community of women who love you and are praying for the very best outcome for you!!
Oh, I am so very sorry to read this. Iโve missed your blog and thought about your words of wisdom many times. Please know of my prayers for you and your family as you walk through these challenges.
I feel so sad to hear about your struggles. You are such a light for me and I have learned so much from you. I am praying for you and your family. Sweet Janey!! You can get through this!
You are a treasure Sarah! What a blessing you are to your family and to so many women. You speak real and honest and always manage to point everything back to Jesus. I am praying for complete healing over you.
Hugs and love from California : )
Sarah,
May the Lord be with you, and give you peace.
Your post broke my heart and I am so sorry for this. I will pray for you and your sweet family.
Long time reader. Thanks for sharing your life once again, and providing that inspirational perspective you always have–now even from one of life's lowest places. My mother-in-law is three years post-chemo and surgeries with the same triple negative diagnosis. To say it is life-changing is definitely an understatement. I am so sorry that you are in the midst of this–lots of prayers and love from southwestern Ohio.
Sarah, I am so sorry to read this! Though you have no idea who I am, I have thought about e-mailing you on a weekly basis for the past few months as I've worried about why you might not be blogging (I thought of you through every Michigan basketball game!). You certainly have my prayers. Is there anything else that we, your loving readers, can do for you? I hope you might still post short updates occasionally so we can know how you are doing and what to pray for. You are such a treasured gift to all of us!
I begin reading your blog when I was pregnant with my first (6 year old now) as a stay at home mom of three your words have brought me encouragement to continue doing what I am doing. Having a child with Autism sometime I lose my patients and on hard days I reread your blog. I can't imagine how hard this is for your family. I will keep you in my prayers.
I don't know what to say but please know that you are in my thoughts. I have wondered how you are, how your sweet family is doing. This space has been a blessing to me. Thank you for sharing yourself through this blog. You have the support of untold numbers as you navigate this journey.
Sarah, Thank you for posting again and sharing. We are with you in this journey.
We pray for you. Much love. I too have been a long time reader. I continue to be inspired by you.
Thank you.
I am so sorry to read about what you have been going through! I just thought yesterday about how I hadn't seen a blog of yours lately and I hoped that nothing was wrong. ๐ As others have said above, you have been such a mentor to me through your blog! Your words were always such an encouragement especially when it comes to not getting caught up in the "rat race of motherhood." I have also adopted your chocolate chip recipe and it is the absolute best and I think about your family when I make them! Please know how much we all treasure you and your wisdom and how much we will be praying for you and your beautiful family in the months and years to come. May God bless you and we will pray for healing.
Sarah, I have been reading your blog for so many years and as I Catholic mom with seven kids roughly the same ages as yours, I have always felt such a strong connection. Your words have meant so much to me on days I needed strength and I know so many others feel the same way. Next month will be three years since I found the lump in my breast and now that I am on the other side of the blur of doctor's appointments, treatments, and hospital stays, I send you all of my strength and prayers to power through and beat this beast of a disease.
Your blog has filled me with strength and inspiration for so many years! I have never commented before, but my heart is with you today. I will forever be grateful for your wisdom and for the way you blessed so many lives with it.
Sarah, it seems easy as a Catholic to believe in redemptive suffering but is so much more difficult to accept suffering when it actually occurs to us. I will be praying for you and your family. You have given so much inspiration to so many, I hope that others provide that for you.
God bless you.
I've read your blog for years but have never commented before. Our lives are so different, but your blog has always been a source of peace, wisdom and strength for me. Thank you for sharing it with all of us. Love and strength to you in this time of suffering.
Sarah, I'm so sorry to hear about this unexpected chapter of your life. I've been wondering about your absence and am so glad to hear your voice and feel your strength again, although not under these circumstances. Thank you for letting so many of us be a small part of your life. You are so loved!
Iโve read your beautiful words for several years. I know we donโt know each other, but I send you all my love. Your words have made me cry, smile, and cherish all my moments at home with 6 kids. Love you!
Oh Sarah! I have thought about you and your family SO often these past few months — wondering if there was a reason you weren't blogging.
I was hoping you were just busy loving life with your 6 kiddos… I'm so sorry to hear this news.
Thanks for the update, for your encouragement, and for all the wisdom you have shared with me over the years. We will keep you and your family in our prayers. Hugs!
Dear Sarah,
I have been a long time reader of your blog for years. I feel as though I know you. And though you donโt know me- your love of the Lord, motherhood, and family has been a comfort to me so many times that I can not even count… Through many hard days (and nights) as a young mother, you held my hand and encouraged me to savor the moments, love deeply and unconditionally, and let go of the things that donโt really matter. I have cried many times reading your sweet, wise words when they were just exactly what my young motherโs heart needed to hear. Thank you, dear friend.
Reading your news today has broken my heart. And yet, I am not at all surprised that through your suffering, you still continue to teach us. God has given you an amazing gift with your writing…thank you so much for using it all these years to share your wisdom with us. In the meantime, I will be praying for you every day. For you, your family, your doctors and nurses. If I only knew you in person and lived close, Iโd come make a meal for your family, or help with carpooling your kiddos, or fold your laundry…I wish I could do something to give back to you. But I can be a prayer warrior in your corner, and I promise I will be.๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ
May God bless and keep you.
Kelli
Love to you… We've never met and I don't even comment on your blog posts, but I've been reading and enjoying them for several years and have always found them comfortingly "quieting" in my parenting journey. The world is so loud… and you have a great way of always bringing to the forefront what really matters anyway. This will probably sound creepy, but I've wished we were neighbors. I think our priorities are very similar and you are a person I would love to know better. I am so sorry for this hard, hard chapter. Crying as I read about it… =( I want your life and posts to be filled with kids' activities and home remodeling and decluttering and baking cookies with your mini me, not fighting for your life. =( =( =( I will be praying for you and your family. God is still on His throne and He is still the Healer. I pray He will grant you many more decades on this earth to praise Him and to enjoy your children. Lots of love!!
Dear Sarah, Your blog has been a huge influence in my life and I am so thankful for everything you have so generously and honestly shared here over the years. I am so sorry for your suffering. May you return to your beautiful ordinary days soon. Love and prayers to you and your family.
I lost my Mom 10 years ago-and have been reading your blog almost as long. You have been such a help and support to me-across the internet. I'm weeks away from delivering my 6th baby-your quiet and peaceful encouragement has meant so much to me. I will be praying for you, and hoping to hear again about the beauty of Ordinary Days. Thank you for being a spiritual mother to me.
Sarah:
This must have been so hard for you to write. Thank you so much for sharing. Like every one else, I am shocked and saddened to hear this news. I have been reading your blog for years and have forwarded it to so many other moms because it's always so full of wisdom. I will keep you and your amazing family in my prayers.
Please know you are in my prayers. A mormon mom that I met years ago shared your blog with me and I have taken so much of your mothering wisdom to heart. With peace, Mea
I am so sorry about your news, Sarah. I've read your blog for years and you are my absolute inspiration as a mother and a wife. I reference back to your words often. Of course all of your readers will understand, but please know how much of an impact you make on so many people every day. Lifting you up in prayer.
Dear Sarah,
Like many others here, I feel like I know you and have loved your musings on the blog for many years now. Hearing of your present sorrow has touched me. I am a 47 year old Catholic mother of six. Please know you will be prayed for in my daily rosary and at Holy Mass often. "The Lord is close to the broken-hearted, and those crushed in spirit he saves." Psalm 34:18
Sarah, like all the others above, I have read your thoughts in this space for years and years. I have taken your advice on mothering, connecting with God, saying no, planning meals, simplifying – the list goes on and on. You are a true gem in this bleak world. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. I pray your body can withstand all that's being asked of it. I know your soul is stronger than any trial. Sending love from Utah.
Iโve followed your blog for so many years and never commented. My baby is the same age as your baby. Thank you so much for sharing. I work in a cancer center with women who have breast cancer and youโre right – it does not discriminate. Your story will inspire others to monitor their health. Wishing you strength and good health!
Thank you yet again for sharing your journey. You're brutal honesty and love for your family brings me to tears. Sending prayers and love your way from North Dakota.
I have followed you for so many years. It is weird but I feel like we are friends! I have always loved seeing the pictures of your children. This cancer fear is real. I had a biopsy. Life is so precious. I just cannot imagine leaving it …ever! But…our home is heaven. Hard to imagine but we are not guaranteed a long long life. I hope you get better. Thank you for sharing. Praying for you.
Sending you and your family the very best of wishes.
No words. All prayers and love.
Sarah,
I too have been strengthened in my motherhood journey by your wise words. Thank you for that and for sharing your love of God and family with us. I will be praying for you and your family.
Sarah,
Prayers for you and your family. I have loved your blog for many years. I love all the wisdom of motherhood you have shared over the years! Your toy recommendations are always the best and most loved and treasured toys! Thank you for sharing your love of God and AND ALL the other tidbits of life. Thanks for sharing this difficult part of your journey.
I to would check every week to see if you had posted. I am sad to hear this news but know I will pray for you and your family. Although my children have been grown for a long time I marveled how you raised your children in this day and age. I lost my husband in January to a Glioblastoma brain tumor a very aggressive tumor. I am still trying to make sense of it. You are very brave woman. I thank you for sharing as cancer is a nasty word we never want to hear.
So very sorry. Thanks for sharing this update. Best wishes for a full recovery.
Thank you thank you for sharing this. I had wondered what happened to you. You were still in my sidebar. I thought you just were busy with life as that is enough to keep us busy. I will place you in my prayers. Everything you have said is wonderful advice.
Praying for a full recovery and for your family!!!
I don't know what to say but wanted to let you know that I am sending my love and thoughts all the way from New Zealand. I have been reading your blog for many, many, many years and it has changed me in ways I cannot thank you enough for. I wish you the best on the continuation of your journey xoxo
Sarah, my prayers are with you and your family. I have been a long time reader and even though our lives are so different, you have been an inspiration. In my faith, I have often heard that collective good wishes and prayers reach the godโs ears faster and hope that is the case as we all pray for your good health.
This is under my Husbands name but its crazy how we were in Seaside FL over spring break and I kept thinking of you and your blog. I have not sat down to really read blogs in awhile but I read it regularly for years. Life has just gotten busy, but your blog always brightened my spirit and helped me see the joy in motherhood when they days of motherhood can just wear you down. I pray for you and your family. I wish you best recovery.
Sarah, Like so many others, I have read and cherished your space here for years. I have been inspired by you in so many ways. My heart aches for you and your sweet family. Please know that so many people are lifting you up in prayer. May God give you the peace that only He can provide. I will offer my Holy Eucharist at Mass for your complete healing and peace in your heart. Hugs.
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Dear Sarah,
I'm also a long time reader, who rarely comments. I too have missed your blog posts and wondered how you were doing every time I saw your blog name in my Favorites list but no new posts from you. Know that so many of us (unseen) readers are praying for you and thinking of you.
May God bless you and keep you and your family.
Lisa in Minnesota
Sarah, I do not know you but you have given me so much advice over the past few years regarding toddler times (which now seem so silly) and I am honestly heartbroken to hear this news. You have been such a source of inspiration in my motherhood journey – I hope you know how special you are to so many whom you have not even met! I will be praying fervently for you – and adding you to our church's prayer list. My heart aches for you and your family – hugs and prayers today and every day forward!
OH SARAH! look at all this love. we all have missed you so much. so many prayers as your body continues to heal. and for your family as they continue to love you through this.
You have been such an influence for many thru your beloved blog. We, your blog followers, will keep you and your family in our prayers. We pray for healing and that your days are returned to the "ordinary" asap. ๐
Vickie
Tallahassee, Fl
Sarah you have touched our hearts…….this must have been so difficult for you. But by sharing your your story, and being courageous, we can share our love for you and tell you how much you mean to all of us. You now have all these extra prayers and loving thoughts being sent to you, that will give you even more strength, comfort and peace and wellness. I will light a candle for you ……Blessings always and thank you for all you have given to your faithful readers…….love…dolores
Sarah- My heart dropped when I started reading your post. Like so many others, I feel like you are a friend. My prayers for you and your family.
I am so sorry. I don't even know you and I feel like crying because I FEEL like I know you. Thank you so much for your blog postings. (I have been missing them.) I have learned so much from you, and reading about your experiences as a wife and mother has strengthened me in my resolve to be a good wife and mother. I hope you will keep your blog open even if you don't post to it anymore (I hope you will change your mind, but I understand.) I will keep you in my prayers and hope for a good, strong recovery so you will have more time with your family.
Sarah, I am so sorry to hear this. Iโve been a longtime reader and your absence was felt in my daily blog readings. I assumed you were busy with your kids; I never dreamed that it would be due to illness. You and your loved ones will be in my prayers. โค๏ธ
You will never know how much your blog means to me. You inspire me to be a better person, wife and mother. And I am scheduling a mammogram.
Oh, my heart, Sarah!!! Iโm so sorry youโre having to walk through this trial. Iโve read and loved your blog since my oldest (now 10! ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ) was a baby. Iโve always loved and appreciated your perspective and wisdom. I figured your blogging had stopped because family life is just busy and more important than any blog. I never expected this, and Iโm so, so sad and sorrowful for you and your family. I will pray for all of you! Thank you for the update. Iโm sure it is very hard to share.
I am so sorry to hear this! Nahum 1:7
Sarah, I am so sorry to hear that you and your family have been going through this. You have inspired me through your blog for years and have truly helped shape what kind of a mother I am. Even while sharing your difficult news you were able to share so much wisdom. I will take your advice to keep my life slow and without stress and with the right priorities in place. With love, Leigh in Colorado
Sarah, I am so sorry to read your news. I had wondered why you hadn't posted for such a long time, but thought you were just taking time to be with your family.
I am 55 years old, and 6 years ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Like you, I didn't do self check ups, as a matter of fact I had never even had a mammogram until I was 49 and the lump was discovered them. I thought since I didn't have any of the "warning" signs and thought I lived a healthy life, I didn't have to worry about it. I know you must have felt the same way, having your children, breast feeding, and living a healthy life. My surgeon said the same thing – its really a disservice to women to say that if you do "all the right things" you don't have to worry about getting BC.
From reading your blog over the years, I have seen you grow in your faith – maybe that was preparing you for this battle. I will keep you in my prayers and pray that you and your family will find healing and strength. Breast cancer is just such an unfair thing. Thank you for sharing your story with all of us. You are a wise wonderful strong woman and I hope you know how much you have influenced so many of us. May God bless you and your family!
Sarah, I got my mammogram done today. It's been quite awhile, and this evening I checked on your blog and found this New post which has already been read by at least 63 other people! Some of whom have gone through the same breast cancer as you are! Amazing! I'm glad you are willing to share this much, and encourage each of us not to compare ourselves with others, and to speak up when we feel bad so we don't carry worry and anger and stress around inside of ourselves. Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ know what we are going through, and the Holy Ghost can come and dwell in our hearts and comfort us as we "keep on swimming…keep on swimming."
I want to share a poem my grandmother, Edith Wiseman, wrote:
Today
I will forget what happened yesterday,
Then I can hold no grudge.
I will not worry about tomorrow,
For the morrow I cannot judge.
But I will be mindful of today,
Being cheerful, come what may.
Recognizing power divine,
I will conquer…this day is mine.
I pray that you will be able to keep living, and able to enjoy your family for years to come. Your friend,
Ruth
Oh my! I never expected to read this. I am so sorry you are going through this. ((HUGS))
Jamie
There are no words. Praying that God surrounds you and your family with His strongest angels. God love you all.
Sending prayers for your complete healing. I've learned so much from you.
In hindsight, I can say you were right about limiting technology- the only other time I commented here. In a way, I was just arguing with myself I think. Sorry for that. An iPhone was the worst thing that ever happened to my then seventh grader, you were right. I have thought many times about telling you this. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself and your life – you have put so much goodness out into the world – I hope it comes back to you a hundred fold. You will be in my thoughts, be well.
Dear Sarah, I am so terribly sad to read your news and pray for your full recovery so that ordinary days are all you have to experience. Iโve been reading your blog for almost seven years and no doubt that you have inspired me and mentored me as a mom more than anyone else. There were times that I thought that I wish my daughter will read your blog one day when she becomes a mother. I will be praying for you and your family and hope that you will find the peace to one day come back to share better news. Thanks for everything! Lots of love! Rachel
I used to tell my sister "If I lived in the same neighborhood as this woman I know we would be best friends" Long-term follower here….so sorry to read this post. I had been checking in with the blog, missing your updates. I will be praying for you, Sarah. You bring many gifts to many people. You are going to be surrounded by, and lifted up, in prayer. I hope you will feel it.
This news completely shocked me. God bless you and your family!! You have been a blessing to me many times (especially when we lost our Caleb 4 years ago and you took time to reach out personally and were so encouraging.) I hope you will keep blogging sometime, but if not, please know how much your words have influenced my mothering for the better. May you be carried through this time. Lots of love! Also, that picture of you and Janey is absolutely stunning โค๏ธ
Oh Sarah! I wish we would have known! So we could have added our prayers for you !! But the Lord knew and I know He sent the right people to you as you needed them!! I will be praying for you in the time to come~ and we miss your blogs~ but we understand!!!! If you feel you can't do this anymore~ Don't. I don't typically do a word of the year, but over the last year and a half, I have strongly felt the Lord stress "Simplify" to me…and I even hear that a lot from other people in my circle and other bloggers… I think the Lord is trying to slow us all down a little…life is short, even at it's longest. We need to focus on our people and Him and the rest will fall into place. I hope your next report is glowing and this is behind you!! Blessings Sweet Sarah!!!
I am heartbroken to read this! For your kids, husband, family and most of all, you. I am so sorry and I will pray for you and your family!
I have followed your blog and have always enjoyed it. I am in shock by your news and will pray for you and your family.
Dearest Sarah: NOW I KNOW why you have been on my mind so much recently! I would always look for updates and worry what had happened. Now I know how to pray for you. I am so glad you let all of us out here in blogland know โ God bless you in this epic struggle, and please know many of us out here are cheering you on as you fight the good fight. Your sentence โBecause I really love life.โ sums everything up so concisely. You want to live and love. ((Hugs)) from Michigan.
Well this breaks my heart. Thank you for sharing so we can pray for you.
Oh dear, I'm so sorry Sarah. I have been reading your blog for years and years, in fact, your blog is the only one I still subscribe to. Your perspective on the joy and beauty of motherhood have been soothing to my soul. Thank you for all that you have shared with us. I will be praying for you. -Sending love from Wisconsin
But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. -Isaiah 40:31
Much love to you, Sarah. Big prayers from Oklahoma.
Sarah-I am a 31 year old mother to two young children. I found your blog a few years ago and have been coming back to it over and over and over again. I think I always will. I donโt believe in coincidences. I thank God for the day he put your blog, and all your wisdom in my path. Your words have served as a guiding light for me as to how I live my life, raise my children, and love my family. I have been checking this space daily wondering what happened. I am so sorry for the hardship you have and are going through. Sarah, I am praying for you and your beautiful family! Thank you for being brave enough to share such personal news.
Sarah, Iโve been thinking and praying for you. Thank you for the update and for, once again, sharing your wisdom. I am a better mother and person because of you. Donโt dwell on the scary triple negative. You can beat this. Put your energy into your family and winning this fight.
My heart broke when I read this post. Iโve been reading your blog for years and I canโt adequately put into words how much your words have helped me navigate the challenges of motherhood. Your soulful thoughts and opinions have guided and encouraged me. Iโve learned so much from you, I continue to learn from you, I am inspired by you. Know that so many people here love you and will be praying for you, including me. Peace be with you and your dear family. God bless you.
You are a warrior. A beautiful, strong, amazing warrior. Sharing this news with us couldn't have been easy. Thank you for doing so anyway. You are loved. So loved. Many prayers coming your way with hopes of healing and health.
Dear Sarah,
Thank you for sharing your difficult journey that you have been on these past months. Iโve really missed reading your posts. Iโm so sorry to hear about this. As a woman of faith I too know that through suffering we grow. Iโve been on my own journey for the past 4 years with a health diagnosis that I didnโt see coming. It does take over your life. I appreciate your last paragraph about what is most important. I truly believe that more than anything.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Shirley
Iโm so sorry you are going through this. Love to you and your family during this time.
I am truly so sorry to hear that you are going through such a hard time.
Your blog has been a huge Inspiration to me over the last years. I will Keep you in my prayers and hope that you recover as quickly as possible. Love to you and your Family!
Just wanted to wish you all the strength you and your family need during this time. <3 Unfortunately there's not much more I can do, just wanted to mention that I've always loved reading your blog, I just want to thank you so much for all those stories. And secretly I hope for a time when this is all in the past and you're coming back to write many more. ๐
Many times I have thought how grateful I am that I have opportunity to read your blog while living so far. Many times I wanted to write you an email of thank you, but never did. Thank you for sharing your life, your ordinary days, your experience and thoughts even in such hard time. Could not read through this post without tears, can't even imagine how hard it must be for you. Prayers and love from a small country of Latvia.
I am so glad that you chose to share, Sarah. It IS a personal journey, of course, but now you can add our voices to prayers lifted up for you. You and your lovely family will be in mine every day. I hope you feel it. Thank you for all the joy reading your blog has brought me over the years … now at least I can do something for YOU! God bless you and give you strength and peace as you walk this journey. xoxo (PS … I love Fr. Riccardo's podcasts, too).
This news makes my heart heavy. Thank you sharing this news with us. I will pray for you and entrust your healing to our Lady.
You have always inspired me and you continue to do so with this post.
Praying for your comfort and healing.
I'm going on retreat and will be praying for your full healing. Thank you for sharing your story!
Iโm not yet a mum, though I do hope to be one day. Iโve enjoyed following your blog for years, watching your family grow and being encouraged by your writing. Thank you for sharing as now we can be praying for you and your precious family. xx
I've followed your blogs for years, and was just recently thinking of you. My heart goes out to you, and I pray for your relief and return to normalcy! I have loved the wisdom you've shared that has helped me through young motherhood. โค๏ธ Thanks for sharing, you are not alone!โค๏ธ
Oh Sarah, my heart goes out to you. Like many others, I'm a long-time reader (starting back when you were pregnant with Janey) but have never commented. I'm a working mom of 2 and am not particularly religious, but I love your blog and your approach to mothering. It gives me strength to do what I know is right for my children, even if it's not what 'everyone else' is doing. Thank you for sharing your news with us; I hope very much that you will be back to your ordinary days soon. Sending love from Australia.
Oh, that sucks!! Praying for you and yours!!
Sarah – I am a long time reader and have never taken the time to post a message before. I am sending you many many prayers across the country. May God bless you and your family.
Dear Sarah, sending you much love and support. You are a beautiful soul and I am very hopeful that you willl have many years of health and happiness ahead. Thank you for sharing your personal journey and insights. Much love, Jan
Thank you for telling us about this journey you are now on. I was really missing your posts. I am praying HARD for you to be healed in God's name. He is mighty and powerful and all knowing of our needs and desires. He can heal you and I pray for you to experience a full healing. Praying for strength for you and your family. I wish there was more I could do.
I am so saddened to read this. I am praying for you and your family. Thank you for sharing b/c now so many more people will be lifting you up in prayer.
Oh, Sarah… I wish I had the right words to say what I'm thinking right now… but I don't think there are any words.
I have missed reading your posts. I was thinking about it the other day and I've been reading since my twins (now almost 11) were babies… probably since they were 1 or 2? Thank you for all you have shared. It has meant a lot over the years.
You are in my prayers. I wish there was something else that I could do… but I am praying and I will continue praying. I'm sending you SO much love.
Thank you so much for sharing and being vulnerable. I have checked in on your blog many times in the last months and figured you were "just busy". Cancer sucks. It sucks for you and all of those who dearly love you. If you have the energy, I don't believe you are out of words. I think this may be a new beginning. You have been such an encouragement to me as I mother my children. I don't think your days of encouraging and mentoring are over. Many women may not have cancer, but they all have struggles. Thank you again for sharing.
Thank you for sharing. Many readers can join in prayer. I know I will carry a prayer for you and your family.
Thank you for sharing over the years. You are wise. You have blessed me and my family. Your approach to motherhood rocks.
Sarah, I am so very sorry to see this. First, I want to thank you for sharing your thoughts and your beautiful family with us for all these years. I am a long-time reader and am so grateful for your wisdom. Even though we're the same age, you're so much wiser than me and have served as a sanity check for me for years. My friend reads your blog, too, and in our conversations about parenting we sometimes find ourselves saying, "Well, Sarah says…" ๐ I have already prayed for you and I will keep praying for a full and permanent recovery. There really are just no words right now. Just praying for you and your family. I know many others are, too, and I hope you feel it.
My heart is breaking for the struggle youโve been through. I refer to you as โmy Catholic friendโ. Even though we have different religions, it was you that taught me that truth is truth, regardless of religion. You have a talent for seeking truth and sharing it in a way that it sinks into peopleโs hearts. I will forever be grateful for the advice you have shared through the years. I will be praying for you and your family.
Prayers for you
I am praying for you from Croatia, Europe.
Sarah, I have enjoyed reading your blog for many years. In addition to your wonderful words of encouragement and wisdom concerning motherhood, your recommendations are always a hit and truly appreciated. I am sending positive thoughts your way. You can do this! Virtual hugs to you and your family. May many ordinary days fill your future.
No no no no. I just can't accept this. I am so sorry for the suffering you have been through. Please Lord, cure this beast and let it be just a painful memory in the healthy years ahead. Sarah, I wish I could hug you right now, I love you and will be your prayer warrior!!!!!!!!!
Sarah- I am heartbroken for what you and your beautiful family have been and continue to endure. This news has shaken me, even though we've never met. I've loved your blog for many years, and I look up to you in so many ways. We have so much in common, I almost feel that we are distant friends;) The picture above of you and Janey absolutely kills me, and perfectly expresses that beautiful, unconditional love that you are talking about. I am praying, and will continue to pray, for you and your family. God is the Divine Physician! He can heal all things!
Oh Sarah..
I am just crushed by your news. Your blog has brought be so much peace and confirmation over the years especially making the decision to stay at home when my daughter was born over 8 years ago. I lost my father to cancer when he was 42. ( I was 17) I always thought that was our "great tragedy" or "cancer card" if you will, until my Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer this October. You will be in our prayers. Thank you for always being such an amazing role model to us all.
I have loved your blog for years. I don't know many sahm's in real life. I'm made to feel less than by so many of my working friends /aquaintances. Thank you for yrs and yrs of encouragement and advice and wisdom. I'm so very sorry for your cancer diagnosis and I pray for you.
I am so very sorry to hear this news. You are such an inspiration to me. I learn so much from you. Your blog has been my favorite for awhile now. I will be praying for you!
I'm so sorry to hear this. ๐ Love and prayers from Ohio
My Dear Lord, when I saw Janey's eyes in the picture, I knew….
Sending love and blessings whilst praying for courage, strength and hope for you and your husband and children, Sarah.
i will keep you in my prayers please let us know how you are doing as often as you are able to
I'm so sorry to hear this, and will be praying for you faithfully. That photo of Janie… I will be praying for all of you.
Terrible news. Thank you for posting. I pray these many comments you receive will bless you, but more than that I pray for you to be well, and for the cancer to be gone so you can get back to the business of those precious ordinary days.
This just broke my heart. As a young mother, you have been a source of inspiration and encouragement to me as my family has grown from one baby to (currently) 4. I love your perspective on and obvious love and respect you have for motherhood. Please know that you will be in my prayers and I will be praying to all "my" Saints for their intercession.
Thank you for the love, insight and wisdom that you have shared with us through the years. You have influenced my mothering in so many positive ways. Your thoughts have caused me to reevaluate the way I mothered and change things for the better. You are an inspiration to me. THANK YOU! I will be praying for you and your sweet family.
I have checked and rechecked your blog over the past few months to see if you posted an update and just did not expect this news. I thought you were taking a "purposeful break from the internet" due to everyday life. I expected you to come back and share all the things you did while you were away, not that you have been suffering. Thank you so much for sharing this and for even finding the strength to offer advice. This news made me burst into tears even though I don't even know you. Please take care of yourself, we are praying for you. I wish I had the words to help.
I don't even have words for what I am feeling…I just looked up your blog yesterday because I have not been active on reading blogs since Christmas and when I saw that you had not posted since then, I got a funny feeling…I checked back today not thinking there would be an update and there it was. You and I have corresponded over the years a few times…the first one was about the horrible movie we both watched at parochial school about kidnapping. Do you remember?! I am heart sick to hear this…really just heart sick. I have no magic words except to say that I will pray for you and your family EVERY SINGLE DAY. You are so loved by so many people…just imagine all the prayers headed towards Heaven for you. I will be checking back periodically to see if there are any updates…sending you love.
Hope and Love to you.
Thank you for sharing. Take care of yourself and know that you make such a positive impact in the lives of so many people. My prayers are with you and your family.
I have read your blog for years and seen you as a โbig sisterโ in motherhood. I canโt thank you enough for all your advice and wisdom and taking the time to write this blog through these years. You have given me hope and light. I will be praying for you to make a full remission, for your family as you all go through this battle and suffer together, and that your suffering bring grace and meaning. โ Toute est grace. All is grace.โ St Therese
I will keep you in my prayers.
Praying for you! Sending love, I'm so sorry you are going through so much.
I've loved your blog for many years, appreciated your honesty, scribbled down your book recommendations and shared many of your posts. I am praying for you this morning – for strength and complete healing and fresh hope.
I noticed that you hadn't posted anything for awhile and I thought that perhaps you'd intentionally decided to take a year off. Now I know what you have been going through and my heart is just bursting for you and your family. What a shock! I have read your blog for years and I so appreciate your many words of encouragement and wisdom. Whether you decide to continue blogging or not, please know that you have truly been a wonderful example and mentor for me from afar! I am sending you love, strength, and prayers for a full recovery and long life from Salt Lake City, UT. May God be with you and your family!
I am glad you came to tell us, even though I hate to hear this news. Honestly Sarah, I feel like I, and many others, love you through this blog. And we will continue to love you as we can, through prayer, even from far away in many spots. I hope God is very close to you today and opens up your heart to some peace, love, and joy in this grueling time.
Sarah, I've been reading your blog for 7-8 years now. I have been checking on you in the last few months to see if there were any updates. I'm sorry this is the reason for the silence. I'm finally about to become a mom in October and I want you to know that I have loved all your advice and plan on re-reading it as I need. Thank you for posting here and know that I will be praying and sending positive vibes your way.
Sarah, that is such a stunning photograph. It captures the strength, beauty and vulnerability of motherhood in much the same way as your blog. If you ever change your mind and find that you do still have something to say, I hope that you will share it with us.
I am beyond sorry to hear this. Sarah, here you are fighting cancer, and still giving us love and kindness and direction! You have been a force of strength for so many of us. You have my prayers. You are a warrior. xoxo
Oh Sara! I am so so sorry! Praying hard for you and yours.
Dear Sarah, I have been reading your blog for many years and felt such connection to you as a mother of 8. My oldest is 24 and youngest will be 5 next week. You have been a beautiful example and reminder of all things that are good and wonderful as a woman, wife, and mother. Thank you for your honesty, virtue, and goodness. I will be praying for you and your family. Much love to you now and always.
Oh Sarah-I have followed your blog for many, many years. I cheered when you had Janey after wanting another baby for so long-and I am crying for you now as you fight this horrible beast. I know you are a woman of faith, and love, and I am lifting you up in prayer today, joining together with all these other people from the "blog world" along with your family and friends. I hope you feel encouraged from all the love and prayers coming your way from people you have touched over the years with your beautiful words. I am praying for Jeff, and your children, as they support you and cherish you through all of this. And I hope, very soon, that you are enjoying an "ordinary" day where the only thing you are "worrying" about is what to make for dinner. Sending love and healing thoughts from San Diego.
I was stunned when I saw this very touching photo of you and your Janey in my blog feed today. I am a long time reader of your blog. Your words have inspired me and brought me comfort through the years. Even a few laughs such as when you had enough and put all the kidโs video games in the top of a closet- loved it. God bless you and your family. I will miss your writings, but please keep us posted when you can. I will hope to see your blog again one day in my feed announcing you are cancer free.
I hope you can feel the love and support from all these comments. I have turned to your blog countless times over the years. Even searching past posts, as I say in my head, "what did Sarah say about that again?" ๐ Many prayers for you and your beautiful family.
Sarah, Like so many above, I have been a faithful reader for so long! I have 4 children and have found your blog to be such a source of inspiration in simplifying motherhood and slowing down to enjoy being a family. I have felt such a connection with you as a woman of faith. I will be praying for you as well as your sweet children and husband and you weather this trial. I wish there was more I could offer but know that many are surely praying for you and yours! I've often thought about you these past few months and periodically checked your blog to see if you had an updated post. My heart has been heavy since reading your post last night. May God bless you and your family!
Praying for you, Sarah.
Lovely Sarah, my heart aches for you. I don't think I could explain how much your example has inspired me over the years. You are like a mother to me, or the priceless wisdom of a favorite grandma. I'm so appreciative of all you have shared and all your encouragement. You bring so much beauty and grace to all of us with your words and I hope we can return the grace now, wrapping you tight in our prayers and support. I'm grateful you shared your suffering because you've been missed! And because if you hadn't we wouldn't have this chance to give back to you now. Many prayers for your complete healing and for your wonderful family. God bless you!
Oh my heart…. i have been reading your blog for YEARS. I know it was when my youngest was a baby… so probably about 7 or maybe more years, I'm not even sure. I never comment, but I always come back to your blog for the simplicity, the breath of fresh air, the joy it gives me. I always think about your "empty drawers" and do a little happy dance of my own when I finally have one.
I am praying for you sister… HARD.
I am 42 years old myself… and a mother of 4 kids. When I read your post, I felt a sudden drop in my stomach. That this can happen to any of us.
I am praying for you and your family and also for all the lives you have touched. You are truly a blessing.
Thank you for always writing in your blog, I know the fact that I have never commented might have some days made you think, no one is listening or reading this. But I know I always have… and by the looks of all the comments above, LOTS OF US HAVE BEEN.
We love you, so much.
Take care of yourself sweetie!
Kelly Jean
yes I thought of her empty drawers a day or two ago as well. She's made an impression!
My prayer at 44 after being diagnosed with breast cancer was to accept His will. It wasn't easy, but eventually I felt peace in knowing He was aware of me and my family and our needs, and that He loved us. During treatment I longed for and prayed earnestly for ordinary days. Years later when I found your blog I knew I'd found a kindred spirit. One spring day six months after I'd finished treatment (surgery, chemo, and radiation) I woke up and looked around our home and realized the walls needed to be painted. The whole family stepped in during spring break and happily helped out because it meant I was coming back from that fog I'd been in for 15 months. Eighteen years later I still crave and love ordinary days. Your journey is personal, and long, and frightening. Thank you for sharing. Your extraordinary words today rang true, just as they have on so many other ordinary days.
Sarah, Thank you for sharing your bravery with us. Keep shining your light, your bravery knows no bounds.
I have cried since I read your post earlier today, and with every tear, I have pleaded an earnest prayer to heaven on your behalf. If only we could somehow truly tell you how much you have given us. How much you mean to us. And like others have expressed before me, somehow you are still quietly and wisely guiding us-even if the lesson isn't one anyone would want to teach. I pray God blesses you and your beautiful, beautiful family beyond imagination. I was introduced to your blog years and years ago by what I firmly believe was nothing short of the grace of God. And as I have inched my way through motherhood, I have repeatedly come back to your blog again and again. And I have sent countless others to blog. And I have proudly continued to collect vintage Golden Books because with your endorsement, I knew it was an honorable thing to do. ๐ We are praying, praying, praying for you. And we will continue to be. Thank you for being willing to let us join you in your pain so that we, too, can lift you up to our Heavenly Father. You are wrapped securely in our prayers.
Thank you for sharing your mothering wisdom over the years, and your current cross. I'm so thankful for you, and will be praying for you and your beautiful family.
Sarah, I was so sorry to read about what you have been going through! I was diagnosed with breast cancer 4 years ago and know how awful it is to have the doctor use the dreaded C word! I think you will beat this-I really do! So many prayers are coming your way from your devoted and grateful readers!!
Prayers and hugs for you and your wonderful family!
LaVonne from Minnesota
Sarah, I'm so sorry!! When I saw the picture of you and your sweet Janey my heart just sunk. May God remind you of His constant presence as you face this difficult journey. May He protect you and heal you and give you His peace. Thank you for sharing life with us. You truly are a gift to me and so many others!
Oh! I've been so grateful for your light and strength and love of motherhood as I've followed your blog and learned from you over the last many years. I'm so sorry to hear about this hard, hard challenge. Thank you for sharing – both the hardness and the hope. All the little and great thoughts you have shared over the years have been such a gift to me as a mother.
I echo all of the comments and sentiments above. I know God is real and I know he hears and answers our prayers. I will pray for you and send you my sincere love and hope that all will be well. THANK YOU for sharing goodness and light for so many years.
Prayers, prayers, and more prayers. I was diagnosed with NH-lymphoma when I was 22 back in 2000 and had chemo and radiation. I can relate to so much of what you wrote and it was a good gut check for me too, because honestly, I just joked with someone this morning that even though I had radiation to my chest wall / left breast due to the location of the tumor, I wasn't worried about breast cancer, because the Lord knows I have had enough to deal with in my life and that would be crazy. (And the Lord in his providence obviously knew I would read this post tonight, so yeah…I am really grieving that comment now, it is not something to joke about. I should know…I have had cancer!) And to top it off, I had lunch today with a friend who was diagnosed with a glioblastoma last week and starts radiation on Monday. Cancer sucks!!! But I know HE is in control and I am not, so I will just offer it all up to Him. Thank you for this beautiful post and please know of my prayers for you and your family!!! St. Peregrine, pray for all those struggling with cancer!!!
I just want to say thank you. You have been such an encouragement and such a grounding force in my life. When all the world around me seemed to embrace keeping kids busy, signing up for all the classes, Rush, Rush, Rush, I could come here, to Clover Lane, and hear you echoing the song in my heartโslow down, be present, love this child right here, right now. Youโve been a mentor to me, and Iโm forever grateful. Iโm so sorry youโre facing this mountain. My prayers are fervently being lifted up for you and your family. May our Father hold you in His everlasting arms.
Dear Sarah – I am so sorry to hear this news. I have been a reader of your blog for many years, and although I haven't always agreed with your points of view, I have appreciated your thoughtful, deliberate approach to life and mothering. (And I bookmarked your workout cheat-sheet, and gotten many useful gift ideas!). I just want you to know you and your whole family will be in my thoughts. It takes a lot to share yourself as you've done in this post and on the blog throughout the years, and I know you have touched so many people. Thank you for taking us along on the journey. I wish you healing and peace.
Sarah, I think of you each day. Like many of the other individuals that commented, I am SO incredibly grateful for all of the wisdom you have shared over the years. I re read the posts I read years ago – and search for specific ones – because they touched my heart and soul when I read them. They are encouragement and an absolute blessing as I've tried to navigate motherhood. Thank you for sharing. You truly have a special gift and I admire your courage, honesty and strength. I wish I could give you the biggest hug right now. Sending you prayers and love. THANK YOU for being a beacon of light and hope in this world. This world needs more women like you!
I've been reading your blog for a few years and treasure your advice as I am just entering the stage of motherhood with adult children. Thank you for sharing your story. Not at all the same, but I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis in September and I totally understand your desire for those ordinary days. Praying for you!
Sarah, I read this this morning (if you see someone clicking on your page from TX each and everyday, thatโs me!) and I just have been trying to find the words and theyโre escaping me. Itโs now midnight and I am still trying to find a way to describe how Iโm feeling. I am heartbroken and so angry that this is happening to you! Youโve been my biggest mothering mentor and the world needs you to stick around for another 5 decades or so and I have such hope in my heart that thatโs exactly what youโll do. Thank you, thank you for checking in with us and know youโve made such an impression on my heart and the way way I have grown up (I think Iโve been reading since about 2010 when I was in my mid-twenties with only two littles at the time) and I just cannot adequately describe how thankful I am for you. Please check in with us when youโre able and know youโre in my thoughts daily! Huge hugs, Sarah. โค๏ธ
I cried ugly tears reading this.
I'm still crying.
I want you to know that I will be praying for you, day and night.
My whole family will be praying for "the Clover Lane" lady.
Love,
Yvonne
Sending you love and strength from Ireland. I have gotten so much from your wise words on this blog (and also your book and toy and recommendations!). Sometimes Iโve not agreed but always appreciated the honest, straightforward integrity and love for your family that your posts radiate.
I wish you even more strength as you deal with your treatment. And sending love to you, and thanks for your wonderful, wise blog that has helped me through the last 7 years of early motherhood x Thank you Sarah.
You have touched my life many times with your beautiful mothering wisdom and love of God and your family. I've been so grateful for your positive, uplifting corner of the internet for many years. Thank you for sharing your light, and thank you for telling us so we can keep you in our thoughts and prayers at this time. It is wonderful to see how many other people here whose lives you have also blessed. Thank you, sending love xo
Your post through the years have meant so much to me as a 48 year-old mama of 6 with the last born at 41. All my love and prayers!
Sarah,
I found your blog when my oldest (now 7) was a baby and your words have helped me so much over the years in finding joy in motherhood and embracing all the little things. Iโve missed your posts the last several months and am crying now over your hardships the last several months. I am praying for you and your family, that much beauty will come from these current ashes. Thank you for sharing so much of your thoughts and your family with us through the years. You have brought wisdom and love to many of us, as evidenced by the comments here. Praying for Godโs hand of blessing to rest heavily on you.
Sarah, I am sorry to hear this news. Your writing have been an incredibly important part of my life for many years. I stumbled across your blog by accident (something that was on Pinterest about writing a cookbook) and have been a devoted follower ever since. In fact, it was your writing that shaped our family story. When I first started reading I was a mother of one child working full-time. Your writing encouraged me to go against the norm of my family and friends, quit my job, step out in faith, and stay home with my children (which we now have 3 of)! Your encouragement gave me the gift of time with my kids that I will eternally be grateful for! Your writing has centered me through out the years, given me wonderful advice, and even led us to fantastic toys, games and most importantly books! (My favorite book is now A Lantern in Her Hand, which I learned about on your blog). Thank you for being the encouragement that I needed in raising my family. Have peace knowing that your time was never wasted with blogging as you ministered to many using the gifts God gave you! Thanks for writing this blog and helping to write my family story.
My family has added your family to our daily morning prayers. I hope that you find comfort in knowing that by sharing this your army of prayer warriors has multiplied tenfold and will continue to grow. Your wonderful blog has inspired and blessed me to be the best mom I can be and has inspired countless others as well. Now all of us can turn and send our prayers and blessings to you, I hope you will feel that and gain strength from all your fellow mothers. May the good Lord bless you with healing and peace. All my love.
Sarah,
I too have been reading your blog for many years and have been so inspired by your messages. I hope you will continue to blog because I believe you still have so much to share and many lives will be blessed by it. I cannot begin to imagine the weight of this challenge you are experiencing but I do know that your faith in God and you family will help you through. One of my favorite scriptures is Phil 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." You will make it through this and He will help you. Love and prayers from Utah.
Wow Sara. I'm so sorry to read that you are walking through this. My family was touched and forever changed by cancer two and a half years ago when my brother in law was diagnosed with an aggressive type. I am familiar with the "loss of normal", the "life before" and "life now", the pain, the agony of waiting for results and "for the other shoe to drop" and how it can affect a family. Sending lots of love and healing wishes.
Dear Sarah, for years and years I have dropped by your blog daily. I am reading it from Europe, and I enjoy your writing so much. So hard to read about all the suffering you have been through in the past months! Thank you for sharing your faith through this all. I will pray for you. May the Lord bless you richly, and also your husband and children.
I am so sorry to read of this diagnosis but once again you tackle challenges eloquently and gracefully. You have encouraged me many a morning when my house is quiet and the kids have left for school. I will be praying for you. May you never feel alone. Deuteronomy 3:22 "You shall not fear them, for it is the Lord your God who fights for you."
Sarah, I am so sorry to hear that you are dealing with breast cancer. I will pray for you as I did when we didn't know exactly what it was you were dealing with these last few months. When I was diagnosed with breast cancer at age 51, I fell asleep that night after repeating one of my favorite verses: "When my heart is overwhelmed, lead me to the Rock that is higher than I.' (Psalm 61:2) The Lord is your Rock as well and I will pray that He will comfort, strengthen and encourage you as no one else can. I do understand many of the things you are going through in this ordeal but I can promise you this—He will never fail you or forsake you in this tough time. It's been 17 years ago for me since that day. Love you in Christ……Karen L. (South Carolina)
I'm so sorry to hear this news. I've been a LONG time follower and have missed your posts. Sending best wishes for you and your precious family to get through this difficult time.
My heart aches for you to have read this. I have long enjoyed your blog and will be praying for you and your family. Especially Janey, it must be hard for your sweet girl to understand and cope.
I remember discovering your blog way back many, many years ago. I was so excited because like you I was a stay at home mom, loved keeping a simple and orderly home and wanted my life to focus around my family. Over those years I've read every single post you've made. I have lots of favorites saved to my computer and one I even printed out (How I became undone at an estate sale (I think that was the title?) and have in a special binder of articles that have moved me tremendously. I've e-mailed you with questions on house cleaning and parenting and you have ALWAYS e-mailed me back with your perspectives and ideas…just like a friend would. I feel close to you and your family because through all this time I have seen them grow, seen your own personal evolution, and been invited into every room of your lovely home. Thank you for sharing your life. Thank you for your wisdom and your insights. Thank you for writing this final post (although I do hope that after you get through this terrible ordeal {and I believe you will get through it!} you will come back to writing on here!) because it might save a life of a reader who needs to start doing self exams or mammograms. You have always been good about about reminding me what truly matters in life and this post was no exception. I am grateful for you Sarah and my hearts and thoughts will continue to be with you and your family. Hugs
This made me want to cry. I'm so sorry for what you and your family are going through. I pray that God will bring something good out of it. Life is so hard sometimes… Praying for you all.
Dear Sarah,
Praise God for your witness to love, family, joy, suffering and perseverance. I, too, have turned to you many times over the years for a book recommendation, gift idea, encouragement in raising a big Catholic family, or that trusty โnew favorite chocolate chip cookieโ recipe (again!). You have built a sisterhood here and I wish there were a way to give some of that goodness back to you. I will pray for you and your family as you pass through this deep water, trusting always in our Lordโs perfect plan.
With love,
Susan
I have read your blog for years, before I was married with children. I've now been married for 5 years and we have three little ones. You have inspired me so much and I have rarely commented! Please know of my prayers. I was so very very shocked and saddened to read this news. Please update as you can, if you feel comfortable doing so.
When I popped over here and saw the photo, it pained me to see. I saw your sweet daughter's eyes and realized that she was hugging you. Sarah … I am so very sorry for what you have had to endure. I want to thank you for the many posts you have shared over the years … especially those that remind us of GRATITUDE. You've reminded so many to be in the moment, cherish the ones around you, and be thankful for the little things. I'll be praying for this enormous fight you will be taking on. Be not afraid ….
So sorry to hear this Sarah. I have read for a long time and never commented. You have such a wonderful perspective on life, even when dealing with an illness, and it is so admirable. I'll be thinking of you and praying for you like so many others here. xo
I am so sorry Sarah that you have to go through this. I have always enjoyed your blog; your words, advice and perspective. I'll pray for you and I will take your advice!
Christine
You have been such a force for good to so many of us Sarah. You were the blog I often turned to for reassurance that my โold fashionedโ pared down parenting was not ridiculous and outmoded. You helped me to see so much beauty in motherhood and womanhood. So many of us love you as a dear friend from afar. I hope your ordinary days come back soon, because your ordinary days inspired so very many of us. โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ
I have missed your blogging so much. I have followed you for years and so I feel like you are a good friend. I cried when I read this post just as I would for one of my real life dear friends. Many prayers and so much love for you. You are such an amazing person and Mom and I can't tell you how much you have influenced my mothering. Thank you for your light and goodness.
Oh Sarah…tears. I'm so sorry. I started reading your blog 10 years ago right when I was in the thick of the baby and toddler years. I have there children and have gleamed so much wisdom from you. I've always felt like you could be my sister. I'm thankful to be able to be a stay-at-home mom, and back when they were little I felt like I was always saying no to things because I knew that being less busy was best for me and them… even though the world was preaching the opposite. Thank you for standing up and teaching the importance of being a mother. I have so appreciated your words. I will be praying for you. "I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world". John 16:33
My heart dropped when reading this post, Sarah. I will be praying for you and your sweet family. May you know how loved and admired you are!
I am so sad to read this news but I am thankful you shared it so we can be praying for you and for your family every day. I have always loved your blog and it has been a great inspiration for me since I became a mother eight years ago. Your words have helped me feel at peace with myself, my calling and desire to be home taking care of my family. My family and I will be praying for you daily for comfort, strength and healing.
Oh Sarah – my heart aches for you. I have looked forward to your blog posts over the years. You have such wisdom and your words and encouragement have comforted me (and obviously so many other women) through the years. I started reading your blog about 10 years ago. I had hoped that you were just busy with your life and family. The tears streamed down my face as I read your post. As always your words are so true. We all need to slow down and enjoy the life around us. Stop looking for perfection. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. You are truly an amazing woman.
Sarah,
Iโve been turning to your blog for wisdom ever since I was up pumping breastmilk in the middle of the night with my first baby 7 years ago. My 4th baby is now 1 and your words have shaped how I mother. You have influenced for good not just me but my babies too and I need to thank you for that. Iโve never commented before but you have been such a mentor to me and even in your own suffering you still are teaching me how to live and love well. Thank you my kindred spirit. You see the world through โold fashionedโ eyes, as I do, and you have been such a force for good in my world. My family and I will pray for you. Feel our love! May the arms of our savior hold you and your sweet kids and husband in my stead. This is not goodbye Sarah! Iโll be checking back in on you. Prayer is powerful. Thank you for giving me a chance to pray for you. Love you.
Elizabeth
Iโve read your blog for many years and itโs been my favorite, always. Youโve held up a shining light so many times for me when the world is encroaching on my family… I think โNo, Sarah holds strong in her family, I can too. Iโm not the only Mom holding the world back.โ Youโve made me feel less alone in this parenting journey. Iโm so sorry that youโve been dealing with such a horrific trial and Iโm so glad youโve told us about it so we can hold YOU up for once (well, at least weโll try with our love & words through the Internet). Prayers being sent your way. Please keep us updated if you have the energy.
Sarah, my heart is broken and aches for you.
I've followed you for years. You have always been so positive and so strong about everything in your life. I cried when I read this post. We never know how fast our life can turn around. May you know how blessed you are and I will always continue to pray for you.
Please keep us updated. We love you my dear friend.
Oh, Sarah. Please know that I am lifting you up. I am in hopes that your many readers are providing you strength and comfort now. Yours was the first blog I ever followed way back when your youngest son was a babe in arms or maybe even before. I found such comfort and wisdom in your words which affirmed my mothering even though my children were grown and out on their own. Over the years I have shared your wisdom and recipes with our daughters as I watch them raising their own children and have often been thanked for sharing your words. Hoping and praying for the best for you and that your strength and resilience see you through to better times.
I've read your blog since my youngest was a baby. He is now 8 and I am expected my fourth son. Thank you for sharing your thoughts here for so many years. I am sending support and prayers to you and your family.
Oh dear friend! I wish I knew you in real life so I could help! This blog has helped me through so many hard times as a mother for several years now. I wish there was something I could give back. We will add you to our prayers and be sending healthy thoughts your way. Love you friend. You are one strong amazing mama.
I have been reading your blog for years and been inspired to be a better Catholic, a better mother and a better person. Was wondering if something was up even in the last year really. Wondering if it was just the season and ages of your children. You are right, listen to what your body is telling you. I will be thinking of you probably daily and including you in my prayers.I have faith that your medical community will get things straightened out for you and back on track to your old life.
Thank you for letting us know what is happening to you. I had cancer last year, and my mom (who's also had cancer) told me to say to myself, "someday this will be a memory." It helped me to think about how I wouldn't always be on chemo, and just picture being alive far enough into the future that it could be a memory. I think it helped me get through. I'll be thinking of you, and I hope you keep us updated.
I am so, so sorry you are going through this! I am sending love and prayers to you and your family. May God comfort you and heal you! Although I've rarely commented, your words on this blog through the years have helped me be a better mom to my 4 (soon to be 5) children! Although we've never met, you have served as a mentor for me and so much of what you've shared here about how you parent has been so wise and helped me in so many ways. Thank you for sharing so much in this space; you have made a difference in so many lives that you will never even know!
Oh Sarah. I have been regularly checking the blog to see if you'd posted and just assumed that you'd decided to take a break from blogging. Never did I think it was related to your health! I'm glad you've updated us though and I am sending you a lot of love from New Zealand and I hope you come through this battle stronger than ever. Kia Kaha. xx Chloe
Sarah, I have read your blog for several years, but I have never commented. I've been checking regularly over the past few months and was wondering about you. Thank you for the update and please know that you and your family are in my prayers.
I have been thinking about you often the past few weeks. I had hoped you were well, and missed your blogging, but respect the need for privacy. I am so sorry for this horrible path you are called to walk right now. My heart and prayers are with you. Thank you for "raising" me as a mother- I truly feel that way about you. Your heart and wisdom have been a foundation for me this past decade.
Sarah,
My heart has been aching and tears have been streaming since I have read this post.
I don't even know how to write what an influence you have had on my mothering career. I am still a young mother in the trenches of raising young kids. When I feel firmly planted yet take the battering of the world telling me to "do more, be more, get the kids out more… " I have come to you to be reinforced and to be supported and to stand strong with someone I admire. My children and their children and so on will be affected by your words of wisdom on this blog. I have seen you as a mother mentor and have come here when I am strong and when I am down– just to read these encouraging words and to have a guiding light in my mothering. Simply to learn how to mother as a career. Motherhood is beautiful and it is so hard all in one. I have needed you through it all. I bet if you were to come to my home it would look a lot like yours with your book recommendations and your toy recommendations! I have gotten most all you have recommended. You have always given the best.
I can not tell you what you mean to me. A struggling mother who looks to you and up to you.
Thank you for who you are!! โค๏ธ
I will pray for you and your family during this time. God loves you and the message of hope that you have sent to us mothers. You have been a light to us and I know He is grateful for you with helping all of us on our journey. Now I hope He helps and comforts your on yours now as He is always known to do and as you have done for us.
Xoxo,
Monica
Sending you strength and prayers from Melbourne, Australia. Long time reader here who isnโt a Mum. Have always hoped that Iโve day I could be a mother like you.
Sarah, you have been an inspiration to me through the years and although our lives look so different (I'm a single mom to one adopted daughter), I've read and heeded your advice on all sorts of topics! I just loved your parenting advice and homemaking tips, and shopping/gift suggestions. I love your family and had no idea why you had stopped blogging. I'm lifting you up in prayer right now and earnestly pray for healing for your whole body, for energy to return, and for your family. May God bless you abundantly because you have been a blessing for so many through this blog!
Sarah – thank you for all of the wisdom and love you have shared with us over the years. You have helped me as a mother and a woman more than you will ever know. You continue to be in my prayers every day. xo
Sarah, I am so happy you are allowing yourself to be open to the healing power of sharing your vulnerable place in life. Live in each moment. As one, who has as recently as last week, has been through health challenges that brought me sobbing to my knees in pleading to God for mercy, I know of anxiety. It is the devil's playground. Fr. John Riccardo is a superstar sharer of Christ!
I just happened upon your blog through bloglovin on this rainy Sunday afternoon…meant to be. I want to share this link with you about "being witnessed"..https://secure.dailyom.com/cgi-bin/display/articledisplay.cgi?aid=63411&aff=
I have had to learn that my sharing at a deep personally authentic level is actually a gift to others, not a burden. AND, the energetic power of the Holy Spirit in prayer is REAL. Use the sacraments to their fullest. I am assuming you are Catholic, but maybe not, due to your listening to Fr. John.
You are in my prayers…as the great healer heals.
Sarah, My heart and prayers go out to you and your family.
I have been checking your blog here and there since Christmas…and was so worried because you had stopped posting and new you had to have been struggling and worried it was this very thing you posted about. I am expecting our 5th baby tomorrow and I am sitting here weeping for you…I have read your blogs for many years and you have honestly kept me grounded as a mother- I thank you from the bottom of my heart and now I will pray daily for you. I will pray for strength to face each second of this journey you are on. May HE lead you and guide you….moment by moment. Love, love, love, love- Esther
I have been following you for years and my youngest is 4 days older than Janey. I am praying for you and your family for peace and strength. Please keep us updated. I know your next post will be a positive update of your health!
I have read your blog for many many year, and come here often. I am so sad to hear this news but thank you for sharing. I am praying for you {{{hugs}}}
Oh Sarah, I am so sorry to hear this! I have been following your blog for years and feel as if I know you as a dear friend…in fact I have always referred to you as my kindred spirit to my husband and he always knows exactly who I am speaking of! My name is also Sarah and when I started following you, we both had 5 children. Every thing you write feels like it came straight from my own thoughts, but put into words much more beautifully than I ever could ๐ You are an old soul, just as I am and that is not easy to find these days. You have a family built on faith and love and I can only imagine how supportive they are being at this challenging time. I have recently begun praying the Divine Mercy Chaplet most days, and it has brought me much peace as I deal with some of my own struggles. As I continue to pray the chaplet and my other daily prayers, I will keep you and your family close to my heart. Sending lots of hugs, prayers and positive energy…Much love, Sarah
I am praying for you and your family. May you feel the arms of our God around you as you walk through this journey. I am so sorry for the pain and aloneness. Sometimes our strength comes in tears running down our cheeks, but it is strength nonetheless. Don't be ashamed or afraid to let those tears come…they are so healing.God bless you, sweet lady!
Sarah, thank you for sharing your journey, my heart is with you & your family. I will pray a St. Peregrine Novena for you (http://www.praymorenovenas.com/st-peregrine-novena). At my parish, we bless people by singing from Numbers 6:24-26. "May God bless and keep you; May God's face shine on you; May God be kind to you and give you peace." I'll add that God give you strength too, because He is your strength. Thank you for all you have done for me over the years with your blog.
Thank you for being so brave & sharing something so personal. Your insights & spiritual sharings are so POWERFUL!!! โฅ โฅ โฅ
Been a blog reader for many years and have always left feeling inspired. You. Are. Amazing. I did worry when you stopped posting so I'm thankful for the update. Even in the face of your tragedy you're still inspiring people.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Dinae
You are a favorite mother to me. Thank you for sharing what you are facing right now. You have inspired me for years and continue to do so. Lots of love and prayers your way!
Sarah – I stumbled across Abbey's Instagram feed not too long ago and saw the photo of you and her. When I saw the scarf on your head, I immediately wondered if it explained your absence from the blog, and I'm very sad to have that intuition confirmed. We're complete strangers, but you have touched my life in wonderful ways through your blog. You matter, even to strangers out here in web land. My mother was a breast cancer survivor. Her diagnosis didn't come until much later in life in her early 70s, she had a mastectomy, and chose not to have chemo or radiation. Her death at 83 was unrelated to breast cancer. She was in a very different hormone and age time in her life and those were big factors in her treatment decisions. I am praying for you and for all those fighting this disease. Thank you for sharing your journey – it's so intimate, yet so many women will benefit. We care. WE CARE.
I have read your blog for years, soaking up all the encouragement you have given us mamas. Thank you for that! I will be praying for you and your family as you journey through this difficult path. May the Lord's peace be with you always!
Words fail me…but I am in awe in how articulate you are in the face of the road ahead. May you continue to find strength in God, your family, friends and the unmet friends through your blog. Prayers, healing thoughts and hope sent to you and yours
Love that quote and I will add it to my journal. Praying for you and your family…
Oh Sarah, I'm sorry. Five years ago I reached out to ask you for prayers when I had been diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer at age 47 (no history or risk factors). Statistics for cases like mine were worse than depressing. I wanted ALL THE PRAYERS and I was shameless in asking for them. I will pray for you! I wrote a blog that detailed my "riot" as I called it. I am Catholic too, and I can tell you for certain that our Blessed Mother is a powerful intercessor. Stay close to her–she always leads us to Jesus. I celebrated my second anniversary of being declared "NED" on April 7. Miracles DO HAPPEN. I will close with Padre Pio's words, which got me through many trials: "Pray, hope, and do not worry."
Celine (akaSleen@gmail.com cancerRiot.blogspot.com)
Thank you for sharing this with your readers. The more prayer warriors, the better!
Sarah, I'm so sorry. I am a mother of three and a grandmother of four. I've read your blog for years, admiring how you are raising your family and sharing your faith-filled, good old fashioned values with young moms. Frankly, your blog brings back such good memories for me of my child rearing years, some of the best years of my life. You honor us all by sharing your story now, reminding us to treasure the ordinary days. That is a lifelong practice. And your words about relationship being THE most important thing!–how wonderful for you to learn this at your young age! So, know that we are all praying for you, and save your best energy for the wonderful family that you are blessed with–your husband and children and parents and siblings and friends. God has you right in the palm of His hand. I am praying for you.
Saying lots of prayers for you and your family! I've loved your blog for years and have looked up to you as an incredible mother and inspiration. You've won motherhood, you can beat this
I am sorry. I have read your blog for years. I send you my love and prayers for a speedy recovery.
I've also been reading your blog for so many years, and have been going through the archives now that I have my own baby (well, toddler) and have really taken so many of your words to heart on parenting. So many prayers and hugs being sent your way. xxx.
As you can tell from the nearly 200 comments thus far, you have touched many of our lives over the past through your blog. Cancer is awful but has given you another avenue to reach out and educate women like myself who think we are somehow immune. Thank you!
I will offer my Mass on April 17 for you.
Janey's eyes look so much like Abbey's in that picture! I'm so glad you updated us on what is going on with you so we can all be praying for you. I agree with everyone else that your blog has been a joy and encouragement to me and so many others. I hope that you will continue to blog when you feel like it. I'm so sorry you're going through this. We're all rooting for you. Hugs!!!
My heart is breaking after reading this and I had to join everyone in telling you that my prayers will be with you and your precious family. Your blog has always been my number one source of wisdom and inspiration and I have missed you so much. I hope this blog post goes 'viral'because I'm sure it will save lives. XOXOXOX
I'm so sorry for what you are experiencing. Thank you for sharing your faith and your journey. I often think of the children's book "Going on a Bear Hunt" during my most challenging times. "Can't go over it, can't go under it, have to go through it." It is definitely easier said than done.
I've also been thinking of you so often. I miss your blog, and hearing about your growing family. I am so sorry you are suffering. I'm glad to know how to pray for you. Much love and respect to you and yours. God's blessings always.
I have been a long-time reader of your blog and as a stay-at-home mom also, have found such kinship and wisdom in your writing. I am so sorry to hear about this. So much of what people say feels like empty platitudes in times like these. I am grateful for your courage to share your story and lessons. I will be praying for you and your beautiful family. – Erin
Your blog posts have brought me inspiration, comfort, and wisdom over the years. I am lifting you up in my prayers.
Hello. I feel such strength from you, though you may not feel strong at times. Thank you! I am adding my prayers to many others for you and your family.
Sarah, I add my voice of gratitude to all these who have commented already. They have said it all and more, but I still want to say thank you personally for sharing your life and wisdom here on this blog. Yours is the only blog Iโve followed consistently for maybe 10 years as Iโve raised my family of six. Why is that? I think itโs because what you have offered here is so hard to find on blogs or social media. What you have told us is the truth. Itโs true that motherhood is rewarding. Itโs also true that it is hard, exhausting, and absolutely worth it. Thank you for keeping this perspective real and at the same time encouraging and inspiring us to do what is best for our families regardless of what the pressures are around us. Faith, family, love, kindness, honesty, humor, graceโthat is what has kept me coming back. I wish I could bring you dinner or help run kids around, but I am so grateful that at the very least I can pray for you. I hope you can feel the love we all have for you and pray that it brings you strength for days to come.
Thank you for being so open and raw in this post; I kept wondering where you had been. I have read your blog for years and will forever be grateful for all you have shared! You have lifted me in so many ways and even though I don't know you I admire you greatly. I will be praying for you, for your family, for healing and for light. May God bless you!
Sarah, Iโm heartbroken to read this. Iโve come back every week hoping for an update about you and your family and I have been praying for you because I have been so worried. Thank you for sharing this part of your journey. By sharing it could encourage other moms to get a check up and take care of themselves. You have given this world such a gift with your blog and have made good moms out of us that weโre struggling and looking for encouragement. Your light shines so bright and cancer will not dim it! I will be praying for you!
Your blog was a blessing to me when I struggled with the decision to quit my job and be a full-time mom a few years ago. I am sure you have been a blessing to many, many other women as well. I am a cancer survivor and I know how incredibly difficult it is to fight this battle when you are a mother. I pray you will find the strength to get through this (I KNOW you will). Please know you have touched so many lives outside of your family, just through your words. All the best.
Dearest Sarah, I've been reading and loving your blog for many years. This news is heartbreaking. Sending you lots of love and hope that you and your family will get through this. Diana
Dear Sarah, this portrait and your words are ever-so-powerful. They remind us that life's journey is never as simple as we hope or carefully plan. The gift of your words – your wisdom, faith, insight – have helped so many of us in this community over the years. And we are so grateful. If only our words and prayers could lift you up at this time. You are loved!
May the road rise to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
May the sun shine warm upon your face
the rains fall soft upon your fields
And until we meet again
May Gold hold you in the palm of his hand
Sarah, I have read your blog for a number of years and never commented. I am a mother of five who has been uplifted and encouraged by your words so many times over the years. We share a similar outlook and approach to mothering. Your blog is a gift; YOU are a gift. I am so tremendously sorry to hear of this mountain you are climbing. And even in suffering, you find a way to encourage and inspire. You and your beautiful family will be in my prayers. Thank you for your bravery in sharing a bit of your story.
I am so glad to hear from you. I don't even have any words. I am just glad you shared your heart. You spoke to me and many others with your honesty, I am sure. Praying for you right now.
I too have been a reader for years – and truly love your blog! I check in every few weeks to see if you've posted, and was curious if something had shifted in your life. I'm saddened to hear the news of the journey you are currently on, but please know I am thinking of you and praying for your healing. Take care!
Sarah, I am so very sorry. I have been a devoted follower of your blog for many years. I can't tell you how much your encouraging words and gentle approach to mothering have helped me in my own journey of motherhood. I wish I could offer you some encouraging words, but I'm at a loss. I am praying for you and your family.
I have to add to what everyone is saying. Your blog made me feel like I had a champion for my choice to stay home, an advocate for mothering and a friend I wish I knew better. Thank you for your words. Even when you have such a hard struggle, your words have inspired me. I have loved on a higher plane as I cared for my father as he fought the good fight against cancer. I know a little of that. Thank you and I will be praying for you and your sweet family.
May God Bless you for all your love, courage and thoughtfulness…to your Husband, family, friends, community and around the world. You are truly inspiring and have given me many things to contemplate with your blog. I am truly grateful for your sharing of wisdom and perspective in this fast paced world which has been passed onto you from those you love and wish you every best wish possible for a speedy recovery and long long life! Prayers and hugs xoxoxo
Like many others I have been reading your blog for years. It was the first blog I ever read actually. You have been an amazing beacon of light. When alone in the darkness I could look to you for strength in parenting and faith. Never feel you need to provide an explanation for your absence. May you continue to find daily blessings. I am praying for you and those you love.
United in prayer! Thank you for sharing your cross with us so that we can pray for you! May Our Lady keep you wrapped in her mantle of peace and healing.
Sarah, I have been following your blog for quite a few years and I am so very sorry to hear that you are going through this. I have been through breast cancer as well..just two years ago and as they say, I have found a new kind of normal. I was wondering if you have read "Had I Known" by Joan Lunden? She too had triple negative breast cancer and I have read her book and Hoda's book as well. I found them both very encouraging and informative. My heart and prayers are with you through this journey.
Sarah,
May all of these comments bring you peace and comfort, as I feel the same way, that you have given us all so much. Many times in this noisy, busy life, I have thought as you have mentioned that we all need to get back to simple things for ourselves and our families.
Thank you…thank you for sharing your story, and the picture of you and your daughter
I love this quote: "Everyone of our paths is different, yet we walk them together"
Sending you peace!
Sarah , I checked in today to see if there was a new post. I too was wondering what was going on. I have missed your words and wisdom. I am praying for you and your family as you travel this road.
Thinking of you since I read your post contemplating what I could possibly say… I have been reading your blog for almost a decade now and feel for you as I would a close friend. My heart breaks for you and your family and you continue to be in my prayers. There is a blog you might like to read from an Ohio mom with stage IV breast cancer. She has been blogging for 6 years now and is very inspirational. In case you haven't come across her… http://www.dotodaywell.com
Sarah I am so sad to read this!!! I had been checking back for updates and worrying that something could be wrong. You have been a tremendous encouragement to me in my mothering. Your blog has been my very favorite and you have literary changed me as a mother! A year and a half ago my husband was diagnosed with a rare progressive fatal disease so I know how health problems can turn your life upside down. Like you I have also lost a couple of very much wanted babies. A miscarriage and a still birth. I don't know why some people have so many struggles to endure. Your post literally broke my heart when I read it. I will be thinking of you and praying for you everyday.
Oh Sarah, I am so truly sorry to hear of the health struggles you have been walking through. I have checked your blog for several months off and on, your blog has always brought me such happiness- your words on motherhood have always been so full of wisdom and peace and contentment. At times when you feel low, please know that there are many "strangers" out there who have never even met you yet count you a role model, and who are shouldering this burden with you, even if all we can do is lift you up to our Heavenly Father in prayer and petition. You are a beautiful soul, and you are surrounded by your precious family who love you, and I wish you all the very best. I will be praying for you as you continue to walk this journey.
It has taken me a while to come back and comment. I feel devastated for you and yet again your eloquent writing has lifted us all up in the moment of shock, sadness, dread, fear and so many feelings going through our bodies. You are always giving us inspiration, what a mother should strive to be, act and way to carry herself. All your teachings are being reinforced. Praying for strength and health while you continue this journey. Giving you hugs and chocolate .
Thank you for this post. I had been thinking about you, just like the other readers. I have learned so much from you. Living on a different continent, living a pretty different life, working four days a week with two children, having a very liberal protestant faith, I was drawn to your writing for years. You know what matters. I wish you all the best and I will pray for you.
I hadn't checked your blog in a while, but I'm so glad I did, even though it came bearing hard news. I am also a cancer survivor of triple negative! I found my lump at age 38. I am 3 years past chemo and radiation now and all in the clear, but I know how hard it is when you are in the thick of it and it seems as if your life as you knew it is crashing down around you. I will pray for you and your family. I didn't blog much while I was going through treatment..who has time? And I agree, it seems very personal as well. Here is a link to a post I wrote that might encourage you: http://perfectionmyenemy.blogspot.com/2014/11/thankfulness-in-times-of-trial.html. Another blogger I enjoyed reading during treatment, not necessarily because it was uplifting, but because of the total honesty of it was Lil Blue Boo: https://www.lilblueboo.com/the-cancer-chronicles. It's also nice to see her on the other side of cancer and how it changed her. Hoping you are doing well and back to blogging again in the future. Hugs.
Thanks for sharing your life and your pain. I've missed your beautiful voice!
God has promised to be with us through the hard. Hoping you find His strength in your weakness. He has been that for me, our girls, and my husband who has fourth stage melanoma brain cancer.
So many have said it so much better than I could – Thank you for sharing your life with us, thank you for being "normal" in a world of insaneness, thank you for the positive influence you've had on so many moms and helping us navigate the myriad of choices we have to make to keep our families a priority. And now in this season, we ask God to give you grace and wisdom to travel a different kind of path. And know that as you break from blogging our thoughts and prayers will be with you. And perhaps someday….God will guide you back to this ministry of blogging, but if He doesn't, it's be cause He has something better – other people for you to impact. Thank you for sharing your heart and your life with us – your influence will always be a part of my journey.
I read this post a week ago and was shocked and so saddened to hear your news. You have been what feels like a motherhood mentor for me. I have been reading your blog for 8-9 years and your words have helped me through so many hard days and situations raising my three young kids. I canโt thank you enough for your words of wisdom and simple, calm approach to life and motherhood. In this world full of noise, itโs such an important message that is mostly forgotten.
You have so many women and families pulling for strength and healing for you. I hope you can feel all of us lifting you up and holding you and your family in our hearts and prayers. I feel strongly that you will be returning to your ordinary days, and whether or not you decide to share anything along the way, your readers will be right there alongside you Sarah.
Sarah, Thank you for sharing this journey with us all. I grew up in the same small town as you did and went to school with your brothers. A woman in my book club found your blog and said, "This girl reminds me of you! You have to check out her blog." Eventually I realized our common bonds…That was years ago, and you have helped me navigate the challenges and rewards of motherhood and of life as a Catholic mom. I have missed reading your common sense reminders, and like the others who have commented, had just hoped that you were taking a break. Know that you have lots of prayers coming your way, and if you are willing, lots of readers who care and would love to continue to hear from you-good or bad, frequent or not. Hugs to you and your beautiful family…
Hi Sarah,
Your beautiful blog has been the only one (of so many!) that has stayed with me, and that I always refer back to if I need a โfixโ of down to earth mothering.
Saying thank you is no where near enough to convey what your writing has meant to me.
However, thank you for your thoughts and experience. And for the encouragement to see the sheer beauty in staying at home and cherishing my precious family.
Hoping and praying for the best outcome for you and your own precious family. You are an amazing person and mother, and Iโm so grateful the Internet led me to your little corner of it.
Thank you for sharing at such a hard time. Ange from Melbourne. Xx
Sending love and prayers your way, for you and your family. God is good and I'm grateful for your ability to share that in spite of your suffering. Thank you for your faith and the many truths you have shared through the years. You have inspired us by your goodness and continue to do so.
Thank you for sharing. Praying for you and your family. I have read your blog for years. In a few weeks I will give birth to our first child. Please know that your wisdom has shaped how he and any future siblings will be raised and loved. God is with you!
Thank you, thank you for writing this update. Like many others, I have been so blessed by your writings for years and missed you & your blog so much. I have learned so much from you and I'm thankful that a friend recommended you. Sarah, you and your family are in my prayers. Words cannot express how much my heart goes out to you and your loved ones. Sending healing hugs and blessings from Deep in the Heart of Texas ๐
You and your family will be in my prayers.I have missed your wonderful writings,encouragement and your faith.I will pray that from all of us you receive that as well.
Just wanted you to know, I donated my hair today in your honor. Sending love and more prayers from Arizona.
Sarah, I have followed your blog since 2009. I have seen how you have ministered to many of us with your faith, humor, wisdom and, sense of home and family. You always inspire me in times of stress and chaos to slow down, clean my house, read, organize and breathe in this life we have. I have read and reread many of your posts. I will pray for you and your family.
What a blessing you have been for me.
Wishing all those blessings back to you a hundredfold.
I will be praying the Green Scapular Prayer for you for complete healing:
"Immaculate heart of Mary pray for us now and at the hour of hour death. Amen."
I too have enjoyed your mothering wisdom more than you will know. I remember emailing you years ago for whatever reason and learning I was not the only parent in the world that did not let their kids watch the Disney channel, bc I really thought I was!
I cannot even look at that pic of you and Janey without tearing up. And it does not help that my 5 year old daughter (Marin) looks so much like your sweet girl…I have secretly wished our girls could be friends, they could have played baby dolls like only 2 technology deficient preschoolers can!
Pray the Green Scapular Prayer as much as you think of it! Many healings associated with this Marian devotion, my brother included…I would mail you one, but obviously I would not ask for your address, so have someone get you one if you do not already have one!
In Christ,
katie
I have gleaned so much wisdom from you through this blog & am thankful to you for sharing all that you do. Prayers for continued strength, peace & complete healing.
I've followed your blog almost since the beginning and I feel like I know you as you have shared your heart. I'm not sure if you know the impression that you have made on your readers. My tears and my prayers are with you.
I starting learning about motherhood from your blog years ago when I was a young(er) mother of 3, expecting my 4th. I now have 9 children and cannot tell you how many times I have remembered your advice while making decisions about activities, technology, toys, etc. Thank you for all the wisdom you share. You are in my prayers.
Like so many of the other women commenting, I too have read your blog for years. You are an inspiration. You have taught us, encouraged us, loved us through your words… Thank you for sharing yourself with us! As a collective body, may we share our hope, love and faith in your healing and prayers for your family as they process this as well. We pray in Jesus Name. Lord, hear our prayers.
Dearest Sarah,
I just want you know I believe in the power of collective prayer. My little family is praying for you daily and combined with all the others who are praying on your behalf, I hope you can feel some sense of peace and love. Your advice has profoundly shaped how I mother my children. In fact, one blogpost in peticular changed my whole frame of mind and set me on a different, beautiful path this year. I was going to email you about it last September but never did. Thank you for everything.
My heart hurts for you, but also I find great solace in your faith. I pray for you to find the gifts in your struggles. Heavens know that you've been a gift in my struggles many times. I pray for you, your family, and your medical team.
Bless your dear heart, full healing to your body and strength through all the suffering—my prayers for you.
St. Anne, St. Mary Magdelene, St. Peregrine, our Blessed Mother – Please pray for Sarah's strength, peace & healing.
I am so sad to hear this news Sarah. I too have enjoyed reading your blog. Your wisdom for us as women and mothers has been a gem to me. You've had it right all along to slow down and enjoy the journey and that family is the most important thing in this life next to our faith. Please know that I am praying for you and hoping for the best. Know that you've been and will continue to be an inspiration to me and all of us. Even though this post was difficult to read and I'm sure to post, I hope you'll feel the strength of those who you've influenced for years.
I am so sorry to hear this Sarah! I too have enjoyed reading your blog for years. You've had it right all along to slow down and enjoy the journey and that family is the most important thing we have in our lives next to our faith. Please know that you have been such an inspiration to all of us women and mothers! It was hard to read this blog post and I'm sure it was harder to decide to post it but I hope you'll feel the love and concern from all of us. Thank you for influencing all of us in a positive way. I will be praying for you and hoping for the best. I hope you keep us updated on how you are doing. Love to you and your family!
Sarah – I have read you blog for so many years now and have found it to be such an encouragement to me as a SAHM of 4 daughters. I'm so so sorry to hear that you're going through this. Praying for you.
I have read your blog for years and have missed your posts! So glad you posted so that we can pray for you!
Oh Sarah… I have followed your blog since my eldest was born seven years ago. It was one of the first blogs I read and remains one of my favourites. Thank you for always sharing your wisdom in such an honest, humbling way… you cannot imagine the impact this blog has had on young mothers around the world (I am in London) My heart literally breaks for you at this news. I and will continue to pray for you and your sweet family throughout this trial, that the Lord will give you all the strength and hope and healing that your body needs. Thank you for the honour of sharing this with us. With so much love xxx
You and your family are in my prayers as you continue your healing journey. You have provided me with much parenting inspiration (and good gift ideas!) over the years. God bless you!
Dear Sarah,
reading this post and the comments, I remembered what I told you some years ago: you are "a little pencil in the hand of a writing God, who is sending a love letter to the world".
MAY YOU TELL YOUR LIFE STORY TO YOUR GREAT-GRANDCHILDREN!
All the best from over the ocean!
Forever grateful for your blog!
Love, Raluca
I'm really sorry to hear about this. I've been wondering how you and your family were doing. Please take care of yourself. You have a huge online family who care about you. Keep us updated when you can.
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Praying that you are given strength during this trial. I've read and enjoyed your viewpoints on this blog for years! Thank you for sharing your voice with the world! Take care of yourself. Much love and prayers.
Sarah, I discovered your blog 8 years ago when my oldest was a baby and I was just beginning my journey in motherhood. You share wisdom and encouragement that is truly needed in this world. You have inspired and helped me and I am so grateful. I, like so many others, will be praying for you and your family.
I will be praying for you and your family! Thank you for sharing so much encouragement in the past, praying for you now is an opportunity to give a little bit back for all you've given to me.
All you holy men and women, pray for us.
I am sorry that you are going through this. I love your bravery. Too many friends of mine including my sweet 74 year old mom have had breast cancer. I wish I could take any pain away from their suffering, and this makes me more motivated to do breast exams on my own. besides going to the doctor once a year. I pray many blessings upon you with your treatment, and hope it doesn't come back. One of my daughters friends has been on and off with leukemia, and recently received a type of immunotherapy called CAR T-cell therapy. To put it simply, a few months ago she had a certain type of cell (T cells) taken from her body and for the last few months they have been genetically modified to find and destroy the Leukemia cells once back in her body. Isn't that amazing! So far the treatment is working and I pray for her still…she's only 22.
I want to thank you for having shared my story on "COMING HOME" series, and for your inspired writing. I will miss it, and hope to run into you someday. You are a gem, and by the comments that are posted on this section shows that you have touched so many hearts.
God bless you in your future endeavors in fighting cancer, and on motherhood. Your blog will live on in my heart, and right now you need to take care of you. I am thinking about taking a hiatus on blogging as well, and living in the moment. I love to write, and may not do that right away. I can always handwrite in my journal, and scrapbook my photos again. Who knows. Time will tell as it did with you!
Love to you and your family Sarah! xoxo
Sarah- Iโm so very sorry to hear you are going though this. I was shocked and so saddened upon reading it. I wish you all the best in your recovery. You have SO many people with you through this!! Thank you for sharing so we can help you along the way, as you have helped us all for so many wonderful years. Peace and love to you and your family. Xoxo
Beautiful Sarah, you and your family are in my prayers. โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ
Thank you for sharing your story. I have loved coming to your blog to gain parenting inspiration over the years. You always have a perspective that lines up with mine. You have been missed these past months. I hope you are healing and having a restorative spring!
I have missed your blogging, as I have been a reader for many years, and have wondered…thank you for sharing. Someone very close to me just received some news of a spot that does not look good…could be cancer…and it kills me to say it. Thank you for your words. You are always so honest and I appreciate it very much. Prayers to you, your family, and medical staff as you are going through this.
Dearest Sarah,
I too have read your blog for many years and have been consistently nourished and strengthened by your words. They have truly been a light and a guidepost in how I have chosen to live my life and raise my family. In the 'noisiness' of this world I have often come to this space to read and reread your words. I have cherished them all so much. I am so sorry you have been going through this hard, hard thing. I have put you on the top of my prayer list and will continue to pray for you and your beautiful family as you walk through this wilderness season together. We all truly love you Sarah, and we thank you for your raw honesty and continued wisdom is this post. I will pray, and pray, and pray, and cry, and pray again.
Beautiful words about a very difficult thing. Prayers for you (and your family) as you walk through cancer. Thank you for encouraging me over the years in my motherhood journey.
I randomly came to your blog today for inspiration. And beleive it or not I found it, though not in the form I expected. I have read your blog for years and I have always been a bit envious. I am a working mom, not by choice, but by necessity, with no extended family. I am 42 and expecting my fifth child. And I feel overwhelmed. So I thought — let me just focus on my family and my home and maybe I will find a bit of peace on that little blog I used to follow. And what I found is that we all suffer. And God has a purpose for it. And our job is to hang on and get through it, still loving Him and loving our families, and pershaps hardest of all, loving ourselves. I will be praying mightily for you and will commend you to Our Lady.
Crying. I'm so very sorry to hear this news and wish my arms could be there to "lift you up". I will keep you in my daily prayers. For what it's worth, three in my circle of life have had breast cancer and all have overcome! You can do this. I sure missed you. My daughter (and youngest child of 4) is the same age as your youngest and I've loved watching them in the same stages of life. I've purchased a lot of your recommendations for toys, books and have LOVED them. Your words have been such a blessing in my life (and my family's indirectly). We are rooting for you! Do the hard stuff to get to the good. Much love from our family in Colorado.
I will miss your blog so much! Prayers and best wishes to you in the journey ahead.
My heart broke reading this post. I too have been so touched and inspired by you as a mother. I started reading your blog when I had my first baby. I even emailed you when I was struggling with breastfeeding and weaning. I was so touched that you took the time to write back, giving me much needed personal advice and help. That baby is now almost 8 years old and I've added two more to the mix. I have taken to heart many of the words you've written on this blog as I raise them and am so grateful for your guidance. I know you have blessed and helped so many women, mothers and families. I now hope as you go through this trial that you will feel lifted by the many prayers on your behalf. Lots of love from Utah.
Dear Sarah, I've been a regular reader long before I became a Mom. Thank you for sharing your wisdom and experience so generously as you weathered the storm of parenting. I'm so sorry to hear this news, and my prayers for you are those of healing and recovery. May you find comfort and strength from your loving family and the community you have created in this space. Take care and be well!
Just coming back to say how much I have been thinking of you and praying for you, Sarah, and all of your family. I read the following today and wished I were close enough to just come sit and rub your feet! https://onbeing.org/blog/courtney-martin-sitting-alongside-suffering/
As a grandmother of many years I found your blog through barefootinthekitchen/Stephanie several years ago. I have found your love of motherhood and your encouraging words so refreshing in these days of shifting values. I am a woman of deep faith. I love Jesus Christ and strive each day to follow Him. In our faith tradition we fast once a month and offer our up our faith in behalf of others or even ourselves. Yesterday I fasted and prayed for you. I pray that your uninvited journey will be made bearable and that miracles will happen. I pray that you will continue to feel the strength and peace that comes from trusting in God's plan and that you will feel His arms around you when it's impossibly difficult. Thank you for the marvelous gift you continue to be to so many!
I have been thinking about you lately, because my little one has fallen in love with Gyo Fujikawa books, which I already loved and you recommended…
I just wanted to let you know- you already know that your influence on your children is the absolute most important thing you can do, but you have also been a huge influence on me in how I mother my children. Thank you for the time you've spent sharing your knowledge on this blog. My prayers are with you and your family.
I also have read your blog for years and have never commented. I am a mom of six young children and I treasure motherhood with all of my heart. But that doesn't make it easy. Your posts have given me encouragement, ideas, hope, wisdom, and strength. I wanted to thank you for that. I'm praying for you and your sweet family.
Sarah, I've been reading your blog since Patrick was a baby, and have always found wisdom and encouragement in your writing; it informs my parenting daily. Thank you for your honesty in this post. Lots of love, hugs, and prayers from North Carolina. Kate
Wow, I love the fact you came in and yet you still showed your heart, truth and compassion ooze from you. I'll be praying for restoration of health, may you feel His love and comfort these days as you journey this unexpected change. Best wishes from New Zealand, I've followed along for years as many others have. Thank you for all the insight you offered into life, family and faith through your life. I hope to see you back again, and the routine of ordinary days back as your daily walk.
I've read your blog and admired you for years now and am so saddened to hear this! Thank you for your wise words over the years and may your relationship with God continue to uplift and strengthen you. I'm so sorry you have to go through this, but thank you for sharing the quote about finding meaning in suffering. -Emily
Sarah– I've been reading your blog religiously since 2008 or so. You have always, and still are, the ideal I try to aspire to as a mom. I am so sorry for what you and your family are going through, and my prayers are with all of you. The picture is just gorgeous and completely captures a mother's love.
I'm a very long time reader and sometimes commenter. I'm so saddened to read your news but I take your advice to heart to slow down, do self-checks and pay attention to life.
I'm praying for you, Sarah!
with love from South Africa
xxx
Thank you for sharing this with us, because at the very least I would like to pray for you. Your words have served as a touchstone to me over many years of parenting and I hope you realize that maybe God called you to that, too. God bless.
Sarah, I kept checking back to see a new post from you and hoping you and your beautiful family were doing well. My heart just broke when I saw your latest post. I canโt imagine what youโve been through and yet here you are reaching out and sharing all the hard and beautiful things you are still learning along your journey. Thank you for all the valuable wisdom you have passed on. Itโs been such a blessing. Much love and prayers.
I too had breast cancer (5 years ago!) and I missed and longed for the ordinary days.
Wishing you all the best.
I donโt know you personally, but can I tell you that I love you. I love the what I have learned from you about being a mother. That we need to listen to our inner voices as moms and not what society or anyone else tells us. To be present as mothers and put our family first. To cherish the โold waysโ, the good books, the ways our mothers and grandmothers lived and loved. I too just went through a breast cancer journey last year and know a little of what you must be feeling. The crippling fear, the pain, the friends who come along side you, the family who walks with you, and most important, our loving God who carries us through it all. I am and will be praying for you and your loved ones.
Sarah- I have followed your blog since before Patrick was born & have loved your message to slow down & make family your priority. Your encouragement has made a difference in my mothering journey! โค๏ธ I am so sad to hear about the battle you're fighting now. I will be praying for you & your family!
Oh Sarah! I have loved you and your family since the moment I stumbled across your blog 10 years ago! My MaryJane was 3 months old, who is the same age as Patrick. You have raised me as a mother too. And I have gathered so much wisdom and joy from your posts for a decade! You are so loved!! Thank you for sharing your life with us! You truley have been a role model of faith, good values, mothering, cooking, celebrating and my favorite, ordinary day posts. But the most thing that stood out to me through out these years was your intense love of your family. You showed so much love and took great priority to be a wife and mother. And you didnโt take that for granted! You cherished the simple things, even when life gets chaotic. My heart is very heavy knowing you and your family have been going through this. Iโm sending all our love and many many prayers your way. Thank for being such an inspiriation to me!! ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ From: Amy @ ourscoop.blogspot.com
I have read your blog for many years and hearing this news broke my heart. I'm so sorry you've been called to walk this path and have to experience this. You've been such a huge part of my mothering journey these past years raising 4 babies. Your wisdom and love seem to speak exactly what's in my heart when it comes to mothering. I see all the above comments and it's amazing to see how many others have welcomed your words and guidance. Please know I am praying for you and wish you the best.
I have so enjoyed your blog throughout the years. My mother had this same kind of breast cancer last year. It took the entire year to treat but now she is cancer free with an excellent prognosis. But what suffering she went through. Talking about strength, as her little body was being wracked by the chemo, her spirit never gave in. She wanted to live. She wanted to take the treatments so she could get better. That is strength. God bless you immensely and may He give you supernatural strength to make it through every step. I hope you will continue blogging when you feel like it. You have always been an inspiration to me. Benay Blume, from Brazil.
I stumbled across your blog a long time ago. I will never forget how you wrote about saying no to outside invitations so you can be all present for your family. Or how to live with so much less of all the things that clutter your home. Or how you should fix all the broken bits of your house so you can enjoy it, and not only fix it when you're selling and leaving it. As a new mum then, your words of wisdom guided me in how I make my home, and how I make decisions for my family. Catholic mum blogs are a dime a dozen, perhaps, but from you I learnt in so many ways.
I am so sorry to hear of your struggle. And I feel for your beautiful family, having to see you struggle. God has a plan, and if only He will let us have a sneak peek at the blueprints, we could be suffering so graciously now. I will pray for you, Sarah, from all the way here in Australia. Your words leap at me from across the screen and I am a better person everyday for it. You will get through this. The God we serve and worship is kind and merciful, He is our salvation.
Sarah, I am so sorry you are going through this. I have truly enjoyed reading your blog over the years and reading your thoughts on motherhood and watching your kids grow. I totally understand the need to take a break. Even a few posts a year are great. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable.
Sarah I thought about you today as I do everyday. I follow another blog of a woman who was diagnosed with breast cancer this past year. She has shared her journey with her readers. I keep you and your family in my prayers every night.
Happy Mother's Day.
I'm just seeing this post now. I have found such encouragement through your blog posts…especially this one. I'm sending you love and strength and will keep you in my prayers. Thank you for sharing this with all of us. Much love to you and your family.
Wishing you and your family the very best. May you emerge from this ordeal, stronger and happier. Sending you lots of prayers and best wishes.
I have been reading your blog for years! Never have I commented, but this time I just feel I must! I'm not even a mother yet, but you have always inspired me to be a great mom in the future! You truly are an amazing woman – even before the cancer.I don't really know what to say, I just thought you should know how many lives you've touched and I truly hope you raise from this even stronger than before! Cry, be mad, allow yourself to just feel…but know God is always with you and He knows your pain and you heart. You're in my prayers. Love from Brazil.
-Ana
Sarah, I'm so sorry. I will pray for you and your family. You are an incredible mother and I look up to you and come to your blog for words of wisdom. Thank you for sharing your struggles (all of them!) and triumphs.
I don't think I can add anything to what has already been said, but wanted to join in saying you have made a difference in my life and I'm grateful for your wisdom and example. Prayers for you and your family during this trial.
I too have read your blog for many years. I am heartsick that you have to go through something so brutal. I pray that peace (and angels) will attend you during your dark days. You are such a bright light in this world. Sending love…
Oh my, I just read this. Iโm so sorry you are going through such difficult times. Two of my friends had the same aggressive cancer and both recovered, and I hope that you have a similar positive outcome. Thank you for sharing your lovely family and outlook on mothering over the years, you have helped so many mothers shield so many children from the urgencies of the world for just a little longer. I am thinking of your family too – this must be a terrifying time for them. They will grow as humans and in empathy through this journey you are all on. Sadly we cannot protect them from everything, much as we may want to. I wish you strength to keep swimming, whether upstream, as now, or down, as in the beautiful ordinary days you long for (they wonโt seem as ordinary anymore!) Love from a small island in Canada. xoxo
Sarah, I read this last month when your words popped up in my blog reader (I have followed you for years)… My thoughts were "NO. This can't be." THANK YOU for sharing with us when you didn't have to… yet another example of how you continue to strengthen others with your experience. Although I have never met you, we lead different lives, and am guessing we live half a country away, you have shaped me into a better, more grateful, more confident, and more loving mother through all your posts over the years. I consider you one of my mothering mentors. And I just really want to thank you for that. Thank you for sharing your gifts.
Hello Sara. Hope you are doing well tonight.
I am thinking of you and praying for you and your family daily.
I have been a long time reader since stumbling upon your blog many years ago. You have inspired me to become a better Catholic,a better Mom, and provided many great Christmas presents as well! I want to thank you for your gift of writing which has has inspired and strengthened me more than I could ever express. I look forward to hearing from you again when the time is right, and am keeping you in my prayers.
Dear Sarah,
I have been reading your blog for the last 5 or 6 years, never dared to post any comment and admired everything you did for your sweet family. I am truly sorry to read this news, I just assumed you wanted to take a break from blogging. I am sending you lots of love and courage from France, our thoughts are with you and your family. We hope to hear good news from you soon.
Sarah, I just read your post and it really hit home. My heart is breaking for you. My three-year old daughter Emma is a two-time cancer survivor. I have followed your words of love and wisdom since my oldest was a baby, she is now ten. You have given me so much strength over the years as a Catholic SAHM of four. I wish I could now reciprocate and give you the strength you need. You are an amazing woman and have touched my life in so many ways over the years. I just wanted you to know that. Also know that I am praying for you and sending you love. As a cancer mom I get it. I get how much cancer takes away, how ruthless and unfair this journey is, but you will come out of this a different person and your family will have a bond like never before. So much love, my dear. God bless, Leah
Sarah, I was so pleased to see that so many people feel the same about you as I do. You are a treasure. It's hard not knowing how you are doing now but I will continue to say prayers for you.
I have been checking your blog weekly in hopes of finding a new post from you. You are my favorite Catholic mommy blogger and I often turn to your blog for wisdom. You will get through this tough time, stay positive even when its hard. You will be in my prayers Sarah.
Iโve been spring cleaning and thinking of you as I tried to touch everything in each room while I moved quickly about. Reading your blog through the years has centered me and reminded me of the importance of motherhood, to appreciate and notice the beauty in the simple things in life, and that family and God is most important. Thank you, thank you. So much love and prayers for you and your family.
Dear Sarah, I am so sorry to hear what you have been going through. I had checked your blog off and on and figured you were taking a break. I checked today because I was looking for parenting encouragement and my heart just fell. I will pray for you, for everything.
As hard as it is to go through what you're going through, your life is SO BEYOND BLESSED.
Sarah – I haven't read all the comments to you, but the ones that I have all expressed love, hope and prayers for you. I would like to add the same comments to you. That you heal quickly, have courage and strength, etc. Like everyone else, I have missed your blog and have checked back occasionally to see if you had returned. But I have something a little different to add. I am much older than you are…in my 70s – and in 1999, I, too, was diagnosed with cancer. Not the same kind that you are fighting, but I know what each emotion you are feeling is like, the fear, the fatigue, the dread of the chemo…but as you see, here I am writing you eighteen years, almost nineteen, years later. Although I am checked yearly now instead of each month as I was when my surgery, chemo, etc. were over, I still feel the fear and dread you are feeling when check-up time appears. However, these feelings do get better over time. You don't think about them as often and can mostly resume your world, care for your children and family again. Just whatever you want to do. People prayed for me and I will be one of many praying for you. Personally, I felt better when I was out and around people instead of being by myself thinking "what if?" Find what works to soothe you and try that. You have been an inspiration, help and encouragement to so many of us. God will help you through this. With much love and encouragement. Ann from Virginia
Thinking and praying for you, you will get through this. As a mammographer, your words urging women to get screened is so valuable. I will be praying for you and sending positive thoughts your way โฅ
Sarah,
I've read your blog for many years (as my mom and sister have too….and we discuss what amazing mothering advice you give.) I got so emotional reading this post….It made me realize I feel like I know you (at least a little bit). You have shared your knowledge & light with us….and we are forever grateful. May God bless you, and your children, and Husband as you navigate this very hard mountain you have been charged to climb. God be with you friend. I hope as all our prayers for you flood the heavens that miracles will be worked on your behalf, and the coming months, and years ahead will hold joy for you and your family again.
Praying for you and your family
I've been thinking about you and hoping you are on the upswing. Praying for you today.
Dear Sarah, I have so loved your writing and advice and thoughts as I've read your blog for years and years. My heart and prayers go to you and your family. This is devastating to experience and I can only hope and believe in the day you will be done fighting and you will have your ordinary days back. May the Lord be with you!
Still here….still praying. God bless you and your family. Any updates?
I am heartbroken over your news. I am so sorry for the trial you have faced and continuing to face. I have read and loved your blog for so many years and while I am sad to be saying goodbye to your family, please know how much you have taught me and helped me grow as a wife, a mother, and a human. Please know that there are people all over the world praying for a permanent remission for you. I admire you and your wise words. Prayers and love.
Sarah, I possibly cannot say anything that hasn't been said already. And I have waited so long to send this because I felt so sad and angry and didn't want to send a message to you when I felt that way. I am still sad and a little angry about your situation, but feel the urge to write to you today. Even if much is repeated, please hear it from one more voice…
You have been a blessing in my life in the past decade as I started my journey as a mom. Roughly 11 years ago, I turned to your blog daily during my oldest daughter's nap time. It was better than any parenting book I read. It was my "Daily Dose of Positive Parenting by Sarah". You gave me a new perspective, helped me to see things more positively and to embrace each moment. You have continued to be the motherly example I didn't have personally growing up. You have positively impacted me, therefore positively impacting my girls, who will likely take that with them when they are mothers. You have helped me to be better as a mother. You have no doubt done this for hundreds and hundreds of mothers. Think of your impact- and that doesn't even count your own very blessed family! God has used you, Sarah! You have given so much good to this world! I thank you for the sacrifices you have made in order to do this. I thank you for sharing your life, experiences, helpful tips, book suggestions, thoughts on discipline, cute house decorating ideas, and your heartfelt honesty. And as hard as it had to be, thank you for sharing your current struggle. You didn't have to, but it is so good to know. I am praying for you. I am praying for the best possible outcome from all this awful, painful madness you have had to face. I am praying for your dear, sweet family. May God give them peace and courage each day and give you that same peace and courage every moment you need it. Take care, Sarah. God's blessings on you!
sarah, i have loved your words so much but never more than now. your absolute faith and testimony has always shown so brightly. i pray now that the lord carries you and your sweet family through this trial.
Lots of love to you. I have learned so much from you. What a wonderful mentor you have been to me through your writing and sound advice.
I just remenber abiut yiur blog and went look for it online. I will be praying for you. Must be very hard. I am so sorry. Please keep us know how you are. So we cam keep praying.
Dear Sarah, Thank you thank you for your bravery and honesty and vulnerability in this last post. I have been a loyal reader for years and have found myself thinking of you since I read what you wrote – and hoping for healing. You have always been like a lighthouse for me – flashing that slow and steady beacon of light – saying just the right things for me to read at just the right time. You truly have a gift! With love and admiration – Amy
Sarah, i have been reading your blog for so many years silently. I love the way you write and many times, it is so inspirational for me as it gives the feeling that I am not the only one going thru whatever. Was really missing your writing for this long wondering what happened. So sorry to hear about it , but I am sure you will come out of it fully. You will be there in our prayers.
Many prayers for your recovery and for your family as you navigate the path ahead. You have always been an inspiration as a writer and mother. I hope all of these comments of love and support help you to feel lifted up.
Hi Sarah – It's been about a year since I've been able to look at any mom blogs that were apart of my community raising my daughter for many years. I decided today to take a moment to catch up on the lives of so many kindred spirits doing the heart work of motherhood and you're always the top of the list. My heart breaks to read what you've have had to endure but also praising God for His goodness in this, how He is working in you and using this for your good and for His glory. Thank you for sharing your heart and your story. In time, I'd love to hear how your family has processed this season with you. I lost one of my best friends to cancer in August. She was 26, left behind an 18 month old and a husband and step son. It's been difficult to understand, to heal from the loss, but I know He is good and Sovereign. Many blessings!
I've prayed for you tonight that cancer would die the death in your body and be removed. I have prayed the blood of Jesus over you for healing. He was beaten terribly, and by his stripes we were healed.
I've been on this breast cancer recovery journey about fifteen months now. I'll finish my last chemo next week. I've had two surgeries, two rounds of chemo (one harsh, one easier), and radiation. It's not been fun. It's been scary at times, but I cry out to the LORD and he answers.
Since you're a believer, you know to saturate yourself in scripture, I'm sure. I found myself saying from Psalm 118, I will live and not die and declare the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. I told that to almost everyone I spoke to.
I chose to believe God for healing. Everyone that came to Jesus in faith he healed. I decided that I would have faith that I would live. If I were wrong, I'd know that I chose to believe that God is good and I would praise him no matter what. It was hard at times, but I praised and worshiped him through it all.
I even prayed and sang on the radiation table, "Thou oh Lord art a shield to me my glory and the lifter of my head."
I just share this to tell you that God is with you and active in all this. Trust him. He's good.
If you want to, you may read my blog post that I wrote when I revealed it to my readers. It was a hard decision, and as you said, it felt very private, but I felt like it was best for me. http://harvestlanecottage.blogspot.com/2017/05/the-post-ive-been-avoiding-diagnosis.html
I will be happy to pray with you again if you wish to contact me. lauraofharvestlane at gmail.com
God bless you!
God will see you through!
You were absolutely right about the points you shared.
Laura of Harvest Lane Cottage
P.S. My hair's coming back different, but it's coming back.
Today I was going through my recipes and came across your recipe for bagels. The busyness of life and homeschooling my boys has made my free time sparse and reading blogs have been one of the things that have fallen to the wayside. Seeing your recipe today reminded me of you, your blog and your sweet family. I decided to pay Memories on Clover Lane a visit. How surprised I was to find this post. I will be praying for you as you journey through this valley. I'll pray for healing and clarity. Blessings.
Sarah, I am so sorry to hear that you have been going through this struggle. I have read your blog for so many years and been a huge fan of your parenting and family advice. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Wishing you strength and courage.
Sarah,
You are a wonderful gift to this world! I'm so sorry your going through this. You have taught me so much and encouraged me through all of the mothering ups and downs. I wouldn't expect you to remember this, but I emailed you several years ago because God used you in the most amazing way in my life. My husband had been wanting to try for a fourth child, but my oldest was already eleven and I wasn't sure about having that big of age gap. You had written a post about the neat relationship your older and younger kids have and it really helped change my perspective and convinced me to be open to a fourth. We have the most beautiful and joyful six year old daughter after three sons! Thanks you for allowing God to use you through your words and example. I'm praying for you.