(Her serious look.)
I had to make an appointment with a lactation consultant today. I have postponed doing this for 2 1/2 painful weeks and last night I decided I was being ridiculously stupid and stubborn thinking I could solve this problem I’m having on my own.
I have breastfed each of my babies for about 15 months…that’s 6 years of my life..I really thought I had all the answers for every nursing problem that could surface. I left the hospital over confident this time I think. Not paying attention at all to how Janey is latching on…if that is indeed the issue. I know in the beginning nursing can be painful…it was with each of my other babies. But this time, the pain is at a whole new level and not easing up at all…like a level that makes me feel like my eyes are going to roll back in my head. I have to bite down on something every time I nurse her…I feel like a Civil War dude without anesthesia about to get his leg chopped off. I have bled and cracked and healed and then bled and cracked and healed. I am at the point where I am mad that I feel like I can’t even enjoy these precious newborn weeks because I’m worn out anticipating the pain.
Hopefully I will find some answers today and things will get better. Meanwhile Janey is sweeter than ever…burping and sleeping and growing and making funny funny faces. I adore her.